Hi Sue/Rena,
How are you? You blogged this during your 26th year in this world.
Is life still a mystery to you now? Has all your petty issues resolved now?
How is life? Are you still attached with the bank and doing crazy agreements?
Is it still 8.30 to 8.30 life with the office? Back pains still bothering you at night?
Whats your bedtime routine? Can you sleep earlier than 2.00? Or still doing you deep "thinking" before bed? Is Bilqis your only social life after work? still?
Did you finally get your driving license? Are you still hanging on bus doors every now and then?
You were very attached with work during your 20s. You said you don't mind missing anything else but you appreciate your work (your pay) so much. Was really hard having little to spend before. Is that still your mind set now? Tell me about workload. Has things finally gone smoother after nearly a decade with the office? Are you still doing so much, helping so much? Whether you have changed or not, hope that you are in your happiest every time. Last but not least, are you still the smiling chick from the office, providing excellent care for your customer? Remember that your dealers and customers mostly appreciate your service during your 20s in the office.
How is relationship with mates? Do you still hide your anger inside everytime they pass you shit loads? Or when they make snide, unacceptable remarks about things you disagree? Are they still there by the way? Its nearly a decade, reply me what has change.
I want to know your weight? Do you still have burgers and buns for lunch? Or have you moved to rice now, like finally? You often hang in the office during lunch, letting your mates watch you finish your 15-20 mins meal, and you go back to agreements as soon as you finish washing your mouth. Tell me you made it to somewhere more superior now.
I wanted to make this the last point, but I couldnt wait.
Fairytales.
Did you meet him? Did he put a ring on it?
You took such a long time to open your heart to that dreaded species during your teens and 2os.
I wonder what is he like? Remember all the conversations and questions you have before meeting him? Tell me, does "perfect" really exist.
You never said before and I believe you will not say it now, if you have met him and became the Mrs, are there times when he scare you and you feel so disturbed? Your experience in seeing so many wrong things alerted you to this. Tell me that you pick the right one. Remember that you wanted to wipe away all the experience, you wanted to just do this one thing right in life; to pick the right one. I wish you'd reply me with all happiness because you wanted so much back then, you tide up yourself, you were so picky that you probably missed anything acceptable cause your were aiming for perfection.
Perfect or not,
If he is there during your hard times, supporting you, and never leaving you, that is good enough for perfect. It was tiring solving problems alone last time wasnt it?
Do you still enjoy your relationship with the queen? Has she finally stop being worried about everything? Did you guys finally hit the jackpot hahahaha Oh tak boleh tak boleh, hell!!!
Did you make her a granny (Grand-Ani). She hates it doesnt she?? The queen never gets old.
Baby wise, are you anywhere to your 4th child? What was the plan again? To stop working and look after the kids after No.3? I hope he gets your plan cause many doesnt get your freak ideas!
Hahahahaahah Do we have to discuss your bed activities? Hahahahaaha tell me tell me tell me he didnt get angry or pissed during the early days hahahahaha man, you definitely laughed and pictured too much. Pity him.
Its okay if things did not go perfectly as you wanted. Its okay to let him go if he screwed up, if he hurts you, if he scare you like how your experience went before. Remember that you did not have the straight forward life, you struggle so much to be okay, to go along with all this "normal" people. You ate your burgers alone in the eyes of all these normal people. You can take care of yourself. Remember your night walk to your last bus during your 20s? You can do it. If they say you can't, thats probably some psycho pussy talking.
If your are still single at this big 3.0, hahahaha go travelling, go see the world. You like St Francisco so much don't you? You loved the bridge. You wanted to see New York too. Go get them Sue!!! You were debts- free anyway, I believe by now your savings is enough to "take care" of everyhing. Go go go! Stop being so tide up with the typical mentality of being old and useless. Go fuck the world!!!
When you reply, I want to know about all about your closest!
You were steady then, you better be steady now.
XOXO
26 and counting!
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