I don't want this type of life anymore. I'm not enjoying the high pay that I'm earning because of the workloads yang never habis, and I'm not talking abt the typical sikit2 leftover, this is a clear madness where I'm expected to clear so much. After 7 yrs I can say that I'm at the age where I'm looking for something more relaxing, and this files cant be part of my life anymore. I'm thinking of leaving ALOT lately. I guess with leaving I'll get the whatever I'm looking for in this life. Of course leaving means I lost all the "special entitlement" that I'm already used to for 7 long years. Which got me to the beginning of my soul searching where I honestly don't want work to be my priority anymore. There should be more to life than this. (Sight seeing, traveling, taking long leaves not just 3days plus weekends crap, dating, living life to the fullest and not just being a work slave, and meeting people).
I know with the unsung hero thing and me just being promoted I should count a lot of blessings for myself, other people with a lot of papers can't even be in the field that they desire. BUT I was responsible and acting damn matured and nice for 7 freaking years already. My loyalty is already in record and I don't have much to see and prove anymore.
Its a suffocating and very burdening time of my life. I wish hard that I'll be given a nice change after this, who knows after everyone's wishes is granted, it could be my turn to live happily. Pray hard, pray hard.
I think when you reach a certain limit in life, you become more jazz and what you are looking for is not necessary the havoc that everyone wants. So people, I'm AT THAT point already. Maybe because I started early so I'm retiring early too..Hey my 19th was damn damn tight!
It helps to cheer me up with caring friends around. But they also have their own set of probs right. It helps to have a new guy too kekeke....I'm not sure if he's available or not but this is our 3rd week as friends, and things are just too early but I'm happy having him around. I have a promise with bestie, by the end of 3rd week we'll review him and see!
Cant wait for a new happiness.
I have the right to.
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