Happy 26th to my dearself :)
The feeling is quite rusty, I wish I moved like Jagger hahaha.
Nah it doesnt matter what age I am. Just have to keep on living, be happy.
I'm almost over my depression phase, but I know deep down the issues arent resolved yet,
kalau tidak berhati-hati boleh trigger and timbul kembali. Well, I'm only a human.
Work is always about long hours. Aku sangat penat and malas kadang2. Can I change and have a simpler work life? The others are doing long hours too..you go back and tidur macam 1oo tahun tak tidur. Most of the night I go out makan with a friend and talk our tiredness out. Why oh why have to kerja sampai mati? I thought you only enjoy sampai mati hahaha, tak juga right, everything kena balance. See lah, if He wills it and boleh change environment, I'm going to grab the chance and change job. Just that at the moment belum ada keyakinan, something havent gone right with the current job. Next year please be better. I feel like moving out from house/KK and staying alone for a change. Rasa macam sangat puas/cukup stay with family. You might think otherwise but this is how I want it to be so we'll see.
Money is more the less the same. Pay is very low actually, earning a lot from long hours. Very tough this life huh. Should have educate everyone during school not just make us read the thick text book for As. Still saving a lot hahaha I hope I'm not one of those yang mati dalam harta karun mereka. Gulp.
Family, well I think for the 2nd part of this year, after my depression and everything, I see a lot of things differently. Of course I love my family, you can't hate your family cause then who to love anymore? but feels as though I had enough of the princess caring hence I want to have changes. My parents they are the best but there are times aku rasa macam we did not move on accordingly and thats how it should be, everyone should move on, make and adapt changes.
Who knows if theres extra freedom coupons maka He grants it for me? (praying hard, praying hard) Siblings well the two is the wackiest, I wish I can take life less serious like them, I love their ideas walaupun ada masa macam fml, what sh*t are u saying?
Friends, I'm blessed to know a lot of souls who picked me during my very down time. Rupanya besides family, you can turn to your friends (good ones) for advises. So one of the most important happenings this year has got to be me opening up to my friends. Did it in 2011.
Love life, fairytale, (siren, siren) is still NOT happening this year. Its my 26th year as single lady. Feels lonely at down and happy times macam tiada someone special to share and celebrate with. Perhaps its my taste (should I lower it down?) perhaps must open up myself more and more.
What is taste like for 26th year onwards? I like him nice nice nice. Said it 10 years ago I'm going to keep on saying it now. Handsome or not, well I've been very2 nice in commenting but it matters. And I think benda2 macam ni cant be forced. For me IT IS about finding the right person. Cinta can pupuk or not? All I know cinta cannot paksa. Yes if you are lucky you meet the person who loves you more. But on normal circumstances, sila lah pergi berusaha turun ke bus stop dan dapatkan bas untuk ke destinasi anda (Bestie is going to be so proud of me)
The 5year wait is ending. Wah lamanya aku tunggu dia kan hahaha boleh ada anak lorrr am glad ia sampai ke sini. I'll meet someone much better who understands me more than him. Thanx for "staying" with me for that long hahaha how much nonsense he kena layan, thanx for the sms and "1st" memories. Am pulling the red carpet for someone new! Cant wait!
26 is about pergi buat semua yang patut. Don't wait, just do it.
Changes here I come! :)
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