JADI...

Says.

2012-01-30T02:25:00.003+08:00

One early evening;

Me : Come over here, tengok ni, this is the majlis photo..I read from fb the partner is younger(damn stalker~), do you know how old? X ada cakap tak? (X is queens friend who is the father of pengantin)

Queen : (came rushing to hv a look) oh majlis meriah ye bla bla bla pengantin manis bla bla bla nampak muda je bla bla bla (then came this)

-Tak tanya pulak how old is the partner..nanti aku sibuk tanya orang, orang plak cakap "anak kau tak laku pun"

Me : (Looks at the queen and go HUARGHHHHHHH hahahahahahaha WTH man huahahaha)

Gotta be one of our quotes of the century.

Happened a year or two ago.
Yours truly is still comfortable and a-okay standing solo ;)
Thats the problem kot? Too comfortable...well, my bad ^_^
(Don't feel bad coz we feel cool and blessed,
its either Yes, No or something better, thats He's doing lah)

Have a nice month end. I love you too much!

Happy, sad and life goes on. (2011)

2011-12-31T21:20:00.005+08:00

Antara perkara2 penting yang berlaku in my life for 2011 adalah (yg aku ingat la, I don't remember in detail yaw, I'm just too dreamy for that ;) )

1. Begins with being very busy at work, 5days tak cukup, always need to come back on Sats.
Rumours has it that I'll get a promotion. So I waited and waited for THAT to come.

2. Work, work and work..my life since after school is a lot about work and less about everything else; family, friends, boyfriends :p, self indulgent and even less about me ;) I took it as my biggest shade to keep myself busy from entertaining "other" things in my life.

3. Got a lot extra in my salary. Company rewarded me for being the good one :)
Also officially got promoted, tho the pay did not go as high as people think but was really happy because I'm one of the juniors and I skipped a lot seniors HAHA, also helped that boss really liked my effort and work.

4. Work went crazy and I started getting very very stressed. I think it was 2,3 months of darkness, emptiness and I lost a lot of faith in everything :( Family was there, bestie was there, friends were there, ex was there (scandal was there too) and I went on wondering was He there too? Betul2 aku tenat ketika itu yo. Ramadhan and Aidilfitri almost killed me.

5. Got A LOT of help from mates and started to see things differently. A lot of prayers, a lot of
tears and I wake up everyday feeling numb.

Oh sebelum tu aku juga mau highlight somebody's GF msg me in facebook and marah gila wooo aku kacau BF dia (tiada biji). But girl, aku sudah tanya dia ok, dia cakap TIADA GF sudah break up, so aku ON la..manatau dia tiada biji, ish rugi aku, sudahlah time tu aku depress pasal kerja, kena tuduh gatal pulak? Apa dosakuuuuu kekekeke

6. I don't know what else happened but I'M HAPPIER now syukran. I still receive the most calls in the office and it still makes me happy, work is also not a problem, nak I datang Sunday pun boleh. But during the adjusting period I forgot to clear my annual leaves bodoh, ada 13 days aiyoh BURN baby BURN.

7. Also finally understood that I have gastric (yes after all the pains every year), starts to appreciate my medicine, minumlah ubat untuk kelegaan. Punya sakit tu if u get what I mean!

8. Very glad that I made it to December and a new year! As the saying goes, ada hikmah di sebalik semua, I believe that now. It doesnt matter what is coming my way 2012 because if its not okay then its NOT the end. Stand up, wake up and brace yourself, it will rain, it will be okay.

9. Its over between me and -, it calls for me to move on and open up for the real one. If God wills it, insyaAllah.

10. Thank you for the sweet and sour bits in 2011. Thank you for the little and big changes. Most importantly thank you for new friends (and old friends of course ;) ) I wouldnt want things to happen in other way. Everything happens for a reason, and I'm super glad for whatever He plans.

2012? Bring it on. Ngaummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!

26 is like a stone.

2011-10-29T20:22:00.002+08:00

Happy 26th to my dearself :)
The feeling is quite rusty, I wish I moved like Jagger hahaha.
Nah it doesnt matter what age I am. Just have to keep on living, be happy.
I'm almost over my depression phase, but I know deep down the issues arent resolved yet,
kalau tidak berhati-hati boleh trigger and timbul kembali. Well, I'm only a human.

Work is always about long hours. Aku sangat penat and malas kadang2. Can I change and have a simpler work life? The others are doing long hours too..you go back and tidur macam 1oo tahun tak tidur. Most of the night I go out makan with a friend and talk our tiredness out. Why oh why have to kerja sampai mati? I thought you only enjoy sampai mati hahaha, tak juga right, everything kena balance. See lah, if He wills it and boleh change environment, I'm going to grab the chance and change job. Just that at the moment belum ada keyakinan, something havent gone right with the current job. Next year please be better. I feel like moving out from house/KK and staying alone for a change. Rasa macam sangat puas/cukup stay with family. You might think otherwise but this is how I want it to be so we'll see.

Money is more the less the same. Pay is very low actually, earning a lot from long hours. Very tough this life huh. Should have educate everyone during school not just make us read the thick text book for As. Still saving a lot hahaha I hope I'm not one of those yang mati dalam harta karun mereka. Gulp.

Family, well I think for the 2nd part of this year, after my depression and everything, I see a lot of things differently. Of course I love my family, you can't hate your family cause then who to love anymore? but feels as though I had enough of the princess caring hence I want to have changes. My parents they are the best but there are times aku rasa macam we did not move on accordingly and thats how it should be, everyone should move on, make and adapt changes.
Who knows if theres extra freedom coupons maka He grants it for me? (praying hard, praying hard) Siblings well the two is the wackiest, I wish I can take life less serious like them, I love their ideas walaupun ada masa macam fml, what sh*t are u saying?

Friends, I'm blessed to know a lot of souls who picked me during my very down time. Rupanya besides family, you can turn to your friends (good ones) for advises. So one of the most important happenings this year has got to be me opening up to my friends. Did it in 2011.

Love life, fairytale, (siren, siren) is still NOT happening this year. Its my 26th year as single lady. Feels lonely at down and happy times macam tiada someone special to share and celebrate with. Perhaps its my taste (should I lower it down?) perhaps must open up myself more and more.
What is taste like for 26th year onwards? I like him nice nice nice. Said it 10 years ago I'm going to keep on saying it now. Handsome or not, well I've been very2 nice in commenting but it matters. And I think benda2 macam ni cant be forced. For me IT IS about finding the right person. Cinta can pupuk or not? All I know cinta cannot paksa. Yes if you are lucky you meet the person who loves you more. But on normal circumstances, sila lah pergi berusaha turun ke bus stop dan dapatkan bas untuk ke destinasi anda (Bestie is going to be so proud of me)

The 5year wait is ending. Wah lamanya aku tunggu dia kan hahaha boleh ada anak lorrr am glad ia sampai ke sini. I'll meet someone much better who understands me more than him. Thanx for "staying" with me for that long hahaha how much nonsense he kena layan, thanx for the sms and "1st" memories. Am pulling the red carpet for someone new! Cant wait!

26 is about pergi buat semua yang patut. Don't wait, just do it.
Changes here I come! :)

Left.

2011-09-09T02:26:00.004+08:00

I'm having trouble sleeping tonight. Its 0230am. I think a new pattern has just begun. One day can sleep, one day cannot. Tried getting sleeping pills tapi uncle farmasi say mereka tidak mengeluarkan. Got myself drowsy flu pills instead. Might drink it with juice one of the nights.
Good thing is my appetite is back, I have instant mushroom soup and bread next to me.

The club next door is blasting with JLos- On the floor. People in the house is sleeping. Tried calling papa at 12 justnow, guess he's sleeping too.

"The situation" at the moment is calmer. Calmer than the ugly before.
Welcome to my depression phase.
Its been 2mths. With that 2mths I cried a lot, sakit kepala a lot, self pity a lot, tired a lot, cried a lot, tears a lot, sorrow a lot, cried a lot.

"Rena stress ka?"
"Kenapa muka dia macam tu?"
"What happened to her?"

And I cried somemore.
My typist messaged me one night during the early phase
"Are you ok? U are so different now. I even discuss about you with my fiance.
Everything can be solved. I hope you wake up soon and be the happy you"
More tears in a very very long dark months.

I remember looking at this new girl who is such a sunshine, who knew how to work, how to take care of herself, how to have a lot of fun. I started to compare myself with everyone in the office. And I cried.

I will never forget the day I took my first emergency leave. I woke up feeling so tired from my head to my back. Called my exec, told her I can't work and cried. Called papa after ignoring him for so long and cried. "I waited for this day to come...how long was the ignore?"

I remember my final tears in boss's room. I remember telling him I'm a few minutes before my decision and I went out from his room.

And my tears were gone after that.
Yang tinggal hanyalah harapan supaya things changed and I'm given the chance to be happy again.

What a lonely Ramadhan and Syawal.
I was so lonely inside, I was so zero. At that one time I consider pills just to end all this misery.

The comparing part was the most hurtful and painful stage. I'd be so sad inside looking at other people's joy and their free-ness to choose whatever they want in life. (understatement)

I'd look at people's facebook and think how so lucky they are and there I was crying my life out.

Dear Friends,
(You know who you are, I don't have so many)
I hope one day you'd understand what I'm going through, the difficulties of picking up, being redha, sabar, things that I have ignored for so long. I hope you understand its not easy for me to push myself (after so long) but I'm trying my best to not just waste myself in this misery. I'm trying to open my mind and walk to the light. There are days I feel I can pull through, there are days I feel so stuck and that I want to get away from all this . (I wonder what is it for me tomorrow?) I'm starting to pick up, reading a lot of helpful books.
Its been 2 hard months. I'd let you know about September.

See you at the bridge with that beautiful view once I'm fine.
Even if you are at a different bridge that time, do pay our bridge a visit.
The view can't compare.

I have faith I'll be okay, with the biggest INSYAALLAH in this world!
XOXO.

Right here, Right Now.

2011-06-26T19:38:00.003+08:00

I don't want this type of life anymore. I'm not enjoying the high pay that I'm earning because of the workloads yang never habis, and I'm not talking abt the typical sikit2 leftover, this is a clear madness where I'm expected to clear so much. After 7 yrs I can say that I'm at the age where I'm looking for something more relaxing, and this files cant be part of my life anymore. I'm thinking of leaving ALOT lately. I guess with leaving I'll get the whatever I'm looking for in this life. Of course leaving means I lost all the "special entitlement" that I'm already used to for 7 long years. Which got me to the beginning of my soul searching where I honestly don't want work to be my priority anymore. There should be more to life than this. (Sight seeing, traveling, taking long leaves not just 3days plus weekends crap, dating, living life to the fullest and not just being a work slave, and meeting people).

I know with the unsung hero thing and me just being promoted I should count a lot of blessings for myself, other people with a lot of papers can't even be in the field that they desire. BUT I was responsible and acting damn matured and nice for 7 freaking years already. My loyalty is already in record and I don't have much to see and prove anymore.

Its a suffocating and very burdening time of my life. I wish hard that I'll be given a nice change after this, who knows after everyone's wishes is granted, it could be my turn to live happily. Pray hard, pray hard.

I think when you reach a certain limit in life, you become more jazz and what you are looking for is not necessary the havoc that everyone wants. So people, I'm AT THAT point already. Maybe because I started early so I'm retiring early too..Hey my 19th was damn damn tight!

It helps to cheer me up with caring friends around. But they also have their own set of probs right. It helps to have a new guy too kekeke....I'm not sure if he's available or not but this is our 3rd week as friends, and things are just too early but I'm happy having him around. I have a promise with bestie, by the end of 3rd week we'll review him and see!

Cant wait for a new happiness.
I have the right to.

Serenity.

2011-05-14T20:46:00.002+08:00

Feeling very calm and balanced at the moment.
Stopped pushing myself to do so much. Started to give myself a lot of space and time to relax and breathe. Went to get a few tops justnow, that was good, spending my hard earns this way is good. Was office-alone today because non of my officers came. Guess everyone is spending time at home and trying to get out of work madness. I love taking care of my work. I love to get things done, to beat the due dates. What I hate is having too much to do. Drained already so I guess I'm applying this new no-push style starting from now.

I'm not sure what is there to be next.
Thats next after everything is centralized in one hub and not that much office or workers needed. Kinda waiting for the shocking turn actually. I guess I'm a little worried on my new direction, with my very little certificates and 7yrs experience only but not that worried. Could be my new breather this new direction. Will definitely work something out. I know I can do!
Nothing official is out yet. Some says 3 yrs, some others 3 mths...new plan needed!
Cant wait to rest a lot before new plan begins. Jelajah 1Malaysia maybe? :)

I'm reading back a lot of my motivation and self help books.
So funny that I never put it the datas in my head last time, normally just read a bit and nod and laugh. Must take note starting from now.

To begin,

"He is capable of starting things. Who needs someone lazy?" (unless desperate)

Love yourself.
Be free.

Happy! :)

2011-05-10T21:31:00.004+08:00

Through;

rm-yes and rm-less
sad sad days and marvelous days,
where-the-hell-is-my-stuff period,
jokes out of this world,
arguments that all wants to win,
coolest and better,
know it all madness,
ma,
pa,
our dysfunctional style,
cakes, doughnuts, pizzas, burgers, mamaks, nasi ayams, subways (this can go on forever)

and ultimately you will see me in my tale.
(hahaha i know its your day TAPI aku mana mau ditepi ajeee kekekeke)

Blessed day yo!

P/S : I'm almost as cool as you are :p

The more the better.

2011-04-30T16:30:00.003+08:00

Macam sekejap ja the sky was orange, then terus become normal.

I sort of miss having so much stories to share in this blog. Dari isu tak cukup duit to buy bags, to horrible men, sucky day at work and just life issues basically, misunderstanding here and there. Right now I'm a little bit lost in life, I guess my quarter mid life is not done yet. Lemme reach 26th and begone all this shizzooooo.

I'm feeling a bit mellow seiring dengan that time of the month. I wish people would stay and things goes smoothly as planned.TAPI cannot be la kan..it has to have a certain tornado to it, then we learn and value things.

I decided to hold/kiv things with x. Bukan la aku mau dramatic, never will talk to each other ending, but I just want to have more views in my life, more to compare and end up with a satisfying choice. Told him that if he's there by then, it could be us lahh.. and if he's not there anymore, thats okay too, wah I cannot believe I'm saying its okay coz I never let go things in my life, it has to go m.y way, but yeah, someone else is going to be there and I'm there for myself right. I want to be able to do this.

Watched No Strings Attached yesterday, there's this part where Natalie portman's characters sister told her that she's good at being alone. I'm good at being alone too, no headaches and all. But isnt that such a eery thought somehow, ending up alone..with pets. Ok itu saja ja for the effect hahaha..I guess I do want more lovely peeps in my life. Open up I will.

I love to blog about close friends getting married, but macam satu pun belum gerak hahahaha Let me pressure them right here. Oi cepat laaaaaa..i want to blog and photog!!!
And ahem, didnt someone just say that she's ready for little ones?? Hehehehe

May 2011 is arriving. What could be different? Maybe I should make a different.

I straighten my hair again. Thats 500rm plus the shampoo and conditioner. Boleh la once in 2,3 years. Feels good when hair kurang kusut. Next month can colour alreadyyyyyyy!

Public holiday again this Monday.
Happy Labours Day!

30yrs old Rena- Plz reply.

2011-03-20T19:53:00.004+08:00

Hi Sue/Rena,

How are you? You blogged this during your 26th year in this world.
Is life still a mystery to you now? Has all your petty issues resolved now?
How is life? Are you still attached with the bank and doing crazy agreements?
Is it still 8.30 to 8.30 life with the office? Back pains still bothering you at night?
Whats your bedtime routine? Can you sleep earlier than 2.00? Or still doing you deep "thinking" before bed? Is Bilqis your only social life after work? still?
Did you finally get your driving license? Are you still hanging on bus doors every now and then?

You were very attached with work during your 20s. You said you don't mind missing anything else but you appreciate your work (your pay) so much. Was really hard having little to spend before. Is that still your mind set now? Tell me about workload. Has things finally gone smoother after nearly a decade with the office? Are you still doing so much, helping so much? Whether you have changed or not, hope that you are in your happiest every time. Last but not least, are you still the smiling chick from the office, providing excellent care for your customer? Remember that your dealers and customers mostly appreciate your service during your 20s in the office.
How is relationship with mates? Do you still hide your anger inside everytime they pass you shit loads? Or when they make snide, unacceptable remarks about things you disagree? Are they still there by the way? Its nearly a decade, reply me what has change.

I want to know your weight? Do you still have burgers and buns for lunch? Or have you moved to rice now, like finally? You often hang in the office during lunch, letting your mates watch you finish your 15-20 mins meal, and you go back to agreements as soon as you finish washing your mouth. Tell me you made it to somewhere more superior now.

I wanted to make this the last point, but I couldnt wait.
Fairytales.
Did you meet him? Did he put a ring on it?
You took such a long time to open your heart to that dreaded species during your teens and 2os.
I wonder what is he like? Remember all the conversations and questions you have before meeting him? Tell me, does "perfect" really exist.
You never said before and I believe you will not say it now, if you have met him and became the Mrs, are there times when he scare you and you feel so disturbed? Your experience in seeing so many wrong things alerted you to this. Tell me that you pick the right one. Remember that you wanted to wipe away all the experience, you wanted to just do this one thing right in life; to pick the right one. I wish you'd reply me with all happiness because you wanted so much back then, you tide up yourself, you were so picky that you probably missed anything acceptable cause your were aiming for perfection.

Perfect or not,
If he is there during your hard times, supporting you, and never leaving you, that is good enough for perfect. It was tiring solving problems alone last time wasnt it?

Do you still enjoy your relationship with the queen? Has she finally stop being worried about everything? Did you guys finally hit the jackpot hahahaha Oh tak boleh tak boleh, hell!!!
Did you make her a granny (Grand-Ani). She hates it doesnt she?? The queen never gets old.
Baby wise, are you anywhere to your 4th child? What was the plan again? To stop working and look after the kids after No.3? I hope he gets your plan cause many doesnt get your freak ideas!
Hahahahaahah Do we have to discuss your bed activities? Hahahahaaha tell me tell me tell me he didnt get angry or pissed during the early days hahahahaha man, you definitely laughed and pictured too much. Pity him.

Its okay if things did not go perfectly as you wanted. Its okay to let him go if he screwed up, if he hurts you, if he scare you like how your experience went before. Remember that you did not have the straight forward life, you struggle so much to be okay, to go along with all this "normal" people. You ate your burgers alone in the eyes of all these normal people. You can take care of yourself. Remember your night walk to your last bus during your 20s? You can do it. If they say you can't, thats probably some psycho pussy talking.

If your are still single at this big 3.0, hahahaha go travelling, go see the world. You like St Francisco so much don't you? You loved the bridge. You wanted to see New York too. Go get them Sue!!! You were debts- free anyway, I believe by now your savings is enough to "take care" of everyhing. Go go go! Stop being so tide up with the typical mentality of being old and useless. Go fuck the world!!!

When you reply, I want to know about all about your closest!
You were steady then, you better be steady now.

XOXO
26 and counting!

For Our Adult Life

2011-03-19T23:27:00.004+08:00

She is nearly 40. He is nearly 55.
Her status is single. He is married with children.
They have been together since early working days.
15 years.
He can't marry her because its illegal.
This relationship can't be known or seen in the public eyes cause society cannot accept.
They can arrange for meetings in hotel rooms.
She can't call or text him at night.
She can't have "sweet" messages with him cause Mrs might find out.
She hinted for babies.
He said yeah, not that he doesnt want it but it wouldnt be fair for her and the baby.
He can't take her as a wife. Not accepted in their society.
He can't divorce his housewife. Not accepted in their society.
He is a big shot in their society. You can't have a wrecked marriage in this society.

Wow I didnt know society can be a big part, decision maker in our life.
Her closest said nothing.
What is there to say? Its her life.
She chooses what makes her happy.
This makes her happy.
He makes her happy.
BTW, she nearly become someone elses wife,
They had a good relationship, they nearly got married,
but NO. It didnt happen.
So she went to him again.
He soothed her.
I believe what she wanted was him, always.
So they have been together 15 years. Not legally attached.

She's not your daring lady.
Pretty much a very plain jane.
Yet this became her.
Remember that this makes her happy. He makes her happy.
Happy is the champion. Happy is the winner.

I will not judge anymore. 1st or 2nd or 3rd or 4th, you have your reasons.
It could be happiness, it could be that you were blind.
I'll be happy to know that you are happy.
Happy is the champion remember?
So is the bastard.

There is so many shocking stories in life.
This is life. Fuck here fuck there, all in the name of fun
which leads to happiness..pun intended?

I am humbled with every life stories.
So much to be seen and known.

1) Take good care of yourself
2) God will take care the others.

EPL :)

Interesting 50, coz I'm SO zero!

2011-02-19T20:33:00.002+08:00

1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
Same old, same old sue~

2. How much cash do you have on you?
leftover from angpow is about 100++...bank account still have some.

3. What’s a word that rhymes with DOOR?
floor

4. Favorite planet?
I live on earth but Jupiter is sort of a sweet name awwwwwwww....

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?
I picked all kuang kuang kuang

6. What is your favorite ring tone on your phone?
Right now its Pocketful of Sunshine, I love the energy!

7. What shirt are you wearing?
My superman t-shirt, coz its blue and has a red collar line, always love this shirt!

8. Do you label yourself?
Lets see..I'm shy, I stay out of trouble, I can appear to be cute and I don't mess.

9. Name the brand of the shoes you’re currently wearing?
Its china mari, usually 20Rm or 30Rm. I never spent so much on shoes (not yet)

10. Bright or Dark Room?
Bright normally, but for sleeping must be dark!

11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?
I took this from some blog coz I'm so bored yo!

12. What does your watch look like?
B.U.M, its white its from my angpow this year!

13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Started Comitted,A Love Story, by the author or EPL!

14. What did your last text message you received on your cell say?
Sis movie ticket is at midnite. Damn I wish I have a midnite ticket too ;)

15. Where is your nearest 7-11?
Api-Api I think...but I'm used to Orange!

16. What's a word that you say a lot?
i) hmmmmmmm
ii) miaw miaw
iii) dude

17. Who told you he/she loved you last?
I say that to mom everyday, and sometimes I ask bro too- just to annoy him hahahahahaha

18. Last furry thing you touched?
We don't do pets here in my house.

19. How many drugs have you done in the last three days?
I took only one flu pill..and 2 panadols kot...sakit sikit makan panadol...

20. How many rolls of film do you need developed?
Lama tak snap pictures, old boring old!

21. Favorite age you have been so far?
I like this question...I have yet to meet my real sunshine so there's no fantastic fav age yet. I guess I love all my ages for now coz I get to meet a lot friends in school, I changed for the better after I got my job and I'm assign to attend so many characters everyday.

22. Your worst enemy?
Cranky, bitter adult babies. No oh no!

23. What is your current desktop picture?
Orange colour thingie, at least its great for my eyes and mind.

24. What was the last thing you said to someone?
"I don't like this host, talk cock all the time but never takecare of herself"

25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly what would it be?
A million bucks and I'll get a G6! Fly like a G6 yo!

26. Do you like someone?
Not yet, damnit not yet ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh

27. The last song you listened to?
Dato CT nyanyi Cant take my eyes of you.

28. What time of day were you born?
At dawn, I'm such an easy push :o)

29. What’s your favorite number?
7- coz I always get no 7 during primary years!
29- was born on the 29th.

30. Where did you live in 1987?
I was two, stayed in Labuan.

31. Are you jealous of anyone?
Not anymore. Coz life after all if half gold and half shit for everybody, who knows if their shit is shittier than mine!

32. Is anyone jealous of you?
What can I say.........

33. Where were you when 9/11 happened?
At home I think?

34. What do you do when vending machines steal your money?
Thank god for counters in my country.

35. Do you consider yourself kind?
Yes. the kindest.

36. If you had to get a tattoo, where would it be?
I've been thinking about it yooo...I'm not going to have so much coz I would want people to appreciate my skin, maybe I'd have something at the back, bellow my neck, would be so cool to wear a low cut top.

#Clashes with what I follow, stayed as my wildest dream

37. If you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be?
Japanese, tagalog, french.

38. Would you move for the person you loved?
If it is truly worth it- yes sir.

39. Are you touchy feely?
I can be. But not today coz I'm just bored today!

40. What’s your life motto?
Stay a good person, avoid hurting others.

41. Name three things that you have on you at all times?
Handphone, my purse and housekeys.

42. What’s your favourite town/city?
I love KK, I love my moms hometown and KL obviously!

43. What was the last thing you paid for with cash?
My books! Hahahaha

44. When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper and mailed it?
I wrote a letter to my ex years ago..hahahaha masa tu sangat jiwang sangat sayang but never mail it coz I dun care a shit after hahahahaha

45. Can you change the oil on a car?
Me? cars? footballs? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

46. Your first love: what is the last thing you heard about him/her?
i) He's doing fantastic, a professional. And his chick is so sexay yoooo!

ii)He's still a big flirt with no attachment policy. Havent seen him since 07. I'd probably run if I see him. I always run away from "them"

#You can have as many first love as your heart desire!

47. How far back do you know about your ancestry?
Only uptill my grandpa..yg selebihnya aku tak dapat faham, man orang dulu2 keluarga besar ok!

48. The last time you dressed fancy, what did you wear and why did you dress fancy?
Was it a wedding or dinner? Nah, I don't usually do fancy..

49. Does anything hurt on your body right now?
Alhamdulillah everything is ok at the moment. I always have back pains and kepala pusing..work oh work!

50. Have you been burned by love?
Yes. Its still clear in my mind! But you learn to burn it back and let go.

Your problem.

2011-02-13T20:11:00.004+08:00

Saya sentiasa ada masalah dengan orang yg ada masalah dengan agama. Doesnt matter if its my religion or sapa2 punya agama lah..You are suppose to read the right book, understand, ask question to understand, follow or not follow AND respect. Ada mengerti? I'm not religious, I'm like the last one standing who cant ever get her tajwid right, ceh nak cerita tajwid konon padahal baca pun slow. (Gonna improve myself ok, tidak selamanya saya jahil macam ni HUHU). Why can't people ever respect The Greatest's ideas in this world. I mean if you were that great with your "modern" (pui muntah aku) ideas, kenapa kau tak buat agama sendiri? Where are your followers? No followers right? Means you werent so good to begin with la kan...Ini bukan remix geng, agama ni suci, your stupid philosophy tak boleh la campur2 dengan agama. Believe it or not, basic agama semua sama sahaja. Do the good, leave the bad. No body is asked "being uptight". Kalau kau rasa problem, ko buat je lah hal kau. Why oh why do you need to slur badly? Agama yg jadi masalah atau KAU TU yang ada masalah? Yes. I have the highest scare and respect for The Greatest. Meaning I never twist life to a different degree. And don't ever crap me ok, being cool isnt a one way street, ada berlambak cara lain.

OK I'm much better now :)

Say a little prayer for you!

2011-02-05T23:09:00.005+08:00

Silhouette Purple Cobra Tote by Sasha Rowena.
1600.00RM

xoxo

Drained.

2011-01-23T23:28:00.003+08:00

Why am I always zombied out during weekends? I know I work extra hard on weekdays but doesnt mean I need to literally die on weekends right? I guess my body is a mess, I should try taking supplements, Vit C, jamu, protein, wheatgrass, aerobics, yoga, jogs..wah punya banyak kena buat tuuuu...maybe I'll start with supplements first then proceed with the higher phase. (Ceh dasar pemalas) hahahaha..And my kind of supplements should no be those yucky gross thing, i dont do yuckness..ok ok we'll look for something sweet...

The message came from my mom during one of my zombied nap this afternoon. Semenjak dia pandai sms ni she always have a lot of sarcasm message for me, well ke mana tumpahnya sarcasm kalau tak ke anak sendiri hahahaha..one thing that she really cares so much is my meals. Dah makan? bila makan? kenapa tak makan? sedap mama masak hari ni! makan lah! hahahaha lucu doh, sometimes its like kenapa tak makan? KENAPA? hahahahaha

So off to the kitchen I went and theres "love nuggets" and ikan masin.
Ehem, so I have to get up for these? Tapi aku pun lapar kan, so makan saja altho I was a little dissapointed because was expecting hidangan diraja- as usual. After siap I was like mourning in silent why oh why kena bangun untuk ini sahaja? Then she went to the kitchen and was so PISSED that I did not see the udang. Hahahahahaha hidden udang...so what did u have? mama buat udang tauuu. Damn I know something was not right, I didnt know the udang was a little hidden, I can only see nuggets and ikan masin. But after my nasi + nuggets I'm already full so rasa the udang sikit only!

"Nanti laki kau pun mesti ko tak nampak" HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
We always have this inside joke/understanding that I don't see things. Sometimes it could be something right in front of my eyes or something that need just a little eyes, pun aku masih tak nampak. So today I concluded that maybe jodoh depan mata aku, aku ja tak nampak. Tsk tsk!

Work is work. Love it or hate it, its still what it is.

I'll let you know my supplements later kayyyyy...

Happy 4th week of Jan2011! Xoxo

pls visit jehanahmad.blogspot.com -> my babe is back!

New again.

2011-01-01T20:33:00.002+08:00

May we have a more happening year and may we meet moreeeeeeee interesting subjects.
(You don't need to understand, aku sorang cukuplah HEHEHE)

Luvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv u so much.

Jom merepek!

2010-12-04T23:17:00.003+08:00

Tiba-tiba rasa macam bertambah matang and mentality sudah banyak berubah.
Shy to say but I am a very late bloomer, orang umur 13 dah matang..aku baru nak jumpa kematangan sekarang hahahahaha no harm ma..tiada kasi susah orang, kasi susah diri sendiri je gulp! Maka, sedarlah aku kini bahawa yang dalam otak aku tu bukan SEMUA ideal or kena dengan kehidupan, still many to learn, to improve, to understand and to begin yo...dan baru sedar that lelaki garang tu bukan maksud mereka jahat, who knows dalam hati they meant well and saja mau tunjuk jalan (oh, ini tidak bermakna saya tarik balik semua makian dahulu ya..terms and condition applied!) Okay brother2 semua, here's a big way to everybody, saya takkan judge sesuka hati lagi okays?!

Hari tu aku kena kritik as serious and sarcastic..ngiamahai...punyalah aku panas, like who are these nutcases mau cakap aku macam tu, panggil mak dia sini hahahahahhahaha i kid you. One of the things that I mau ubah ialah to take critics dengan lebih open and jangan nak mengada buat muka bitch hahahahahhaha ya ya semua orang ada kelemahan and negative point masing2 ok.

Berbalik kepada kes biol kena kritik tu..seorang bpangkat tinggi telah mengharapkan layanan sweet daripada aku, telah memberikan aku muka busuk setelah aku berkeras dengan my serious shit. Ko gila ka nak manja2, aku handle documents ok..nanti documents tak cukup officer aku bising, ko mau tanggung ka? So lepas dia berdiri ready mau blah aku TAK pandang pun muka dia, dia sort of repeat documents yang perlu and aku bilang "Hmp" Lepas tu setelah officer aku berlembut dengan dia maka dia pun memberi documents itu. Katanya docs ni tiada hal tapi aku serious sangat. Wei bro lu mau manja lu gi zoo la sama orangutan. Cibs betul.

Second kes , 3 orang jonah bros telah mari ke office aku. Seorang beli kereta tapi yang hang gi bawa 2 ekor lagi tu buat apa? Dah la mereka tiada idea mengenai undang2..pas tu mau tunjuk gaya anak orang kaya yang hampeh itu..weii lu panggil bapak lu mari la...aku rasa bapak lu pun malu dengan lagak lu. Yang berurusan sebenarnya no hal..tapi yang seekor tu telah ask so many irrelevant question and balik2 mau ikut idea tak sunat dia tu, like fuck ok...Idea ko salah, kami TIDAK mengamalkan cara mengikut kepala otak kau. So after this and that (ya ya tau la kau anak orang kaya- ko ingat ko paling besar di sini), everything is ok and semua orang blah. Oh part kena cakap sarcastic tu was bcoz aku gi buat muka bitchy hahahahhahahah macam 2x si sampah cakap aku macam tu...aku takut juga kalau dia call gabenor bank komplen kan...tapi lek ma...semua benda "ada" penyelesaian yo :)

Semoga aku boleh terima apa orang cakap pasal aku lepas ni...tapi MANA ADA orang boleh terima pendapat orang lain...paling2 orang diam pas tu belakang ko dia tunjuk finger hahahahah tak pun dia up status kat fB. Ok, ok the point is kena berubah untuk kebaikan!

I always thought that I'd be the first untuk memanjangkan silaturrahim malaya-borneo dalam fam ini...yelah..parents aku kan orang sana but we live here like hundred years oredi, walaupun orang selalu kata kami ada "preference" dalam memilih new family members- which is not true bcoz kami pun tidak pernah membincangkan isu ini kerana langsung tiada isu.
So turns out that I'm not the first, coz my cousin just married a local!!! Punya coollllllllllll, cool lah sbb it goes to show that benda2 macam ni bukan kita yang control, kalau dah jodoh confirm sampai juga. Cuz was even cooler about it, dia kata tak kisah la tu semua, nanti my turn pun sama hebat juga :)

(Kenapa ya kadang2 aku rasa orang lain yang ada preference?)
Next time punya story lah.

Another weekend boleh la aku bertemu mereka di reception, by that time hopefully aku dah beli new camera! Every xmas season I HAVE to get something for myself. Past two years beli hp, this year beli cam la pulak...lepas tu another week I'll fly to kg with mom, biasalah..holiday season di hulu johor okay hehehehe...Maka sebab itu saya memerlukan camera...kami mau capture segala moment ma..pas tu gelak2 tgk, wah comotnya! kakakakaka

I love seeing colorful foods kat blog orang...feels like wow hebatnya mereka cook and bake, aku pun mauuuuuuuuu....hehehehehe ya, ya akan belajar masak nanti...
(Banyaknya mau belajar?!)

Semenjak akhir2 ni..mood merepek sudah menyerap...hehehehe anddddddd feels much better to be and stay as myself, orang dengar cara orang, and aku dengar caraku!

Aku cinta kamu 2010!
Selamat mari 2011!

Hello QUARTER midlife!

2010-11-02T22:31:00.005+08:00

Ini gambar masa dinner company last Saturday. Semua orang pakai baju kotak-kotak. Yawn. I stole this from someones FB, hehehe gambar lain sila tengok di FB aku but as usual not many lah my face. Note: to buy that Lumix before end of the year. Thank you

It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn’t know and may or may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

[Never BEEN with the crowd wahahaha has always been a certified cool loner. Still not sure about things that I like, yet to be seen. Dislike a lot but its ok, tried forgiving. Insecurity is still around, making barely 30k a year is not fine. A bag or two is not fine. Foresee that I will be long in "the" job, still questioning 'the heck I'm doing explaining loans to people everyday??". Am looking for different life for the future. Damn always cock talk, never deliver. Shall see :P]

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren’t exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

[What I realize is- too many mental illness going on. Am not in time to attend nonsense all the time. Please seek help and be friends later, sorry. How on earth did people get to be so selfish, sikit-sikit ambil kesempatan, what I know I'm still better, much better.]

You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared.

[Aku sebenarnya nak jadi artis hahahaha macam nicole richie tu, stylo, ada rocker and faithful hubs and cute munchkin kids. Sungguh amusing I'm handling loans (wtf) and calming down madheads e.v.e.r.y day, sungguh amusing.]

You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren’t so great after all.

[Hahahaha lolness. I miss my friends from school. My comfort zone. They know the real (freak and non-shy) me. Everyone moved. I have my comfort clan now, thank god.]

You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not want. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and add things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not. You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

[What I want is fairytale. Tapi NO BODY lives perfectly. (Yeah I know, thanx for the moment). Have always understood my boundaries, never thought of doing anything "wrong" (at the moment). Forwarddddddddd... ]

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can’t meet anyone decent enough to get to know better. You love someone but maybe love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person.

[Hahahahahahaha rofl. Please lah..can someone do me a favor and erase the wrong ones in my life? hahahahahaha got my heart broken but I'm glad I got my mate back. Now I understand that friendship is much more berbaloi than a man. Kalau betul dia baik, or rather dia "right", he will not cause such a fcuking mess. I will not love a lot in a one time I'm not capable or built that way, can only work (fall for/fall hard) with 1 man. Like very serious, its not even fun. Rugi kan??? Daym.]

One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap and getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.

[You gotta roll with your age. Go by your experience. Random hook ups can fill your time, your fun but never your happiness. Arent you shocked that fun does not automatically secure your happiness? Welcome to quarter mid-life baby.]

You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while wining the race would be great, right now you’d just like to be a contender!

[The most important thing is money. Bla bla bla family bla bla bla health bla bla bla true love.

How do you "handle" life/all this without money? Money.is.a.sin]

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

[I guess we are. Go with the flow, no?]

Kenapa tidak many story?

2010-10-15T00:34:00.005+08:00

Wah really long time since posting every news every week. Wonder why is that? Perhaps masalah sudah berkurang or life has become the same routine with no new things to do?

I've been down with work lately. Not satisfied with so much workload. (Ya, saya pun tahu complaint yaa..). The boss made some adjustment after that, release me from attending manusia2 yang walk in dan hanya perlu menghabiskan agreements. Nothing beats the relieve of having to do only 1 task. Karang orang baca orang kata aku ni tak multitask pulak kan..come to my work ok, we multitask together and see how it goes. So far I'm getting my "good" mood back, since its almost year end and with all the majority purchases done for Raya. Boleh tarik nafas hebat hebat. Used to think that school was like the hardest sh1t in life. Bored to hell subjects, lepas tu crazy friends, lepas tu what the hell teachers, headache crushes; never knew cari duit lagi susah dari tu. Hahaha I wonder what harder things coming our way ya? Cinta terhalang? Nightmare in-law? Jaga baby? Kid you not.

I wonder how it goes if I study after school? Wah mesti hard to the core (for me) coz ehem, yours truly ini adalah seorang yang kuat tidur and no revision kind ok HEHEHEHE what about if I trained myself to try as a stewardess after school? No no sure bapak aku bunuh aku, he's got issues ok with me working up there HAHA, but surely I will not step in Malaysia so frequently, sure aku mengada wanna see negara orang all the time, sure aku tukar-tukar BF. Although I believe kita boleh ubah sesetengah takdir but I also believe every thing happens for a reason. Kalau tak kerja, sure I would never pick up my self and become this kind of Rena. Lets say that Rena yang last time tidak best macam yang sekarang ok :) (Long work story)

I'm one of the last to leave office every nite. UP to this point, I still cannot get WHAT is the need to so rush back? Even back then kan, looking at friends yang macam tak senang duduk wanna go home, I'd be like what is the deal tell me already. Ya, I clearly understand people has got big commitment waiting at home BUT is there a lion at home? Do you really have to go like mad? Ingat lar Tuhan sedikit, I'm sure ada better solution dari rush2 macam tu. (Rumah saya pun best okay, ini bukan masalah rumah best ka tidak, ini masalah mengapa orang bagai lari dari hantu meninggalkan office w.t.f)

After being clearly single ni, I got my normal self back, which is Rena who has so much time to read, so I bought an interesting book just now to begin my appetite. I'm looking for that eat pray & love hahahaha I know its years ago, never really needed motivation back then ;) Need it now for my quarter century. I can't believe I'm already reading motivation nowdays (esp about guys) bahahahaha...so crazy middle finger sometimes but so full of real facts also.

Am not looking forward to my 25th this month. Adoi mak, aku sudah sangat besar ni how la.. I know it wil be this pening (sudah blog 2 years ago ma..25 is such a biggie). My collegue at work is also celebrating his 26th on the same date..coolio huh..I wonder wether they'll invite me for the upacara minum2 hahahahaha damn them, see how first..If I feel flying, I'd probably invite myself (strictly coke ya). Yammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

Bestie is on Hajj. She'll be back in December and I will be lonely :(
Mesti aku banyak blog ni HAHAHA.

I'd be waking up late. Cuti ma tomorrow hehehe Nite.

P/s : I think I'm IN a big "stalking" love. Let you know.

Feelings; don't rain on my parade.

2010-09-04T19:46:00.003+08:00

A few more days to Aidilfitri. What a bore that I'm not back at kampung celebrating, not that its bad here but you know what I'm getting at, raya should be di kampung. Anyway no point to rant about this, might as well make the best of every chances and every breath.

I've been giving a lot of thoughts about my work, I have this feeling that my life is so full of work and nothing else. I'm starting to consider something else, like maybe a new environment. Its hard to look for something as strong as 6 yrs bond but I'm just tired and bored. I know the saying goes that its the same everywhere. You start and things become a routine in your life. Thats this whole point, I'm just sick of routines. Saya mau sesuatu yang berbeza. Siapalah saya hendak meminta yang hebat-hebat but then again, its not wrong to want what we desire. So I don't know, hopefully with these few ramadhan night left, I'll get a clue on the future ongoings. I hope for the bigger better.

The past came to say hi to me Via fb. Hi, masih ingat ka...bla bla..same school..bla bla..was 10 yrs ago. Ini aku sudah agak lah, with fb semua boleh sampai. And then came another knocking, hi, nice to meet you bla bla why don't you add me bla bla don't be so cool. AND THAT I wanted to comment.

I'm not this cool/cold person that you justify me. I just can't afford trouble and problems and dramas and bs. I don't have the time to get involved or money to pay. Even when I'm on the sideline pun dah kecoh cerita bukan2...apa lagi IF I get involved. Might as well take care of myself, eat good foods and online sepuas-puasnya hahahahaha And getting involved is NOT the only way to be happy in this life. Sesungguhnya, tiada ditulis sebegitu di dalam Holy book kita. Saya tidak rasa mahu marah2 dalam post kali ini, tapi perkara ini ada Part II yo kekeke.

Sometimes sulky people should have a good bang on the head so that they know how other people is affected by this baby-ish crap of them. Saya sudah kurang marah kan hehehehe saya sudah besar ma..apa mau marah marah. Life is so short after all. Because life is short, maka harus lah have the BEST in this life. Don't sulk and don't do crazy things.

I am a big 2.5 next month. (Feeling ayu)
Wishing you Selamat early Raya. I want no body no body butch u ^_^

Feeling right.

2010-08-16T00:10:00.003+08:00

Not much to go public about.
Except for one incident during 2nd day of Ramdh, (I don't know why BUT I always have probs on the 2nd day since I started fasting dahulukala), a disturbed behavior man came and accuse me of not returning his disturbed fathers ic. Sheeeshhhh wth man with all this mfs? Knowing yours truly, I DON'T EVER PONDER on nonsense so I was like did not take that shit, your father didnt even allowed me to touch the shit. Of course lunatic still insist that I didnt give back his dads shit, perhaps I took it for photocopy purpose.
Oh fml, why are lunatics allowed to enter a bank?
So shit here and there, Mr.Old and accuser found his shit which I'm sure was inside the fridge or something. Lunatic didnt even bother to apologize to any of us for his deep shit. But nevermind you, I pray that u die driving that car. Thanx very much.

Weekends has been about sleeping and DVD. I'll venture into series soon. Oh ya aku sangat bohsan. Good news has been canceled. So no big news for me this year. So far, so the same.

I need a Mike Delfino. I can be Susan anytime yoooooooooooooooooo :D

Ramadhan

2010-08-11T13:06:00.002+08:00

Lama tiada idea. Malam ini saja lah mencuba lagi.

Old lady.

2010-07-18T01:26:00.003+08:00

Man, I used to have SO MANY things to complaint and curse about. Look at me now. So "tenang" and clear and grounded and all the good verbs. Look at bestie's blog. Bet she doesnt even have her pword anymore. She's on another level of issue, mind her. Hope she gets pass it and return to this brilliant life of online mocking.

1st thing to complaint, there's this bitch in this kedai cuci gambar where i normally frequent altho I don't get HOW MUCH is it actually for sekeping photo. Its like RM2 for two and 60 cents for one and it could be RM3 for many. FML. Berapa bah ni sebenarnya? Cincai kira ka? But of course I dont go mad arguing right. Bloody hell, doesnt matter how much okay, as long as its below RM5, I'll take it. Cuci gambar apa? Gambar kereta. Yes my life is so full cars, pagi2 tengok kereta, pagi2 sampai petang explain pasal kereta, lepas tu explain lagi until people agree and take that bloody loan. Yes, tqvm. SO, as I enter The kedai, bitch with long straight hair dengan gaya malas mau layan hot chick ini came and take my memory card. So pick this and that, so yeah its RM3. And enter a goverment staff (pakai batik because its Thurs) and bitch became SO birdie, wow she went all out "mau cuci berapa?" "wah pakai batik hari ni, mesti kena paksa ni kan? kekek.kekek.kekek." and of course like goyang2 sikit kepala dia because rambut super straight. and terkekek kekek somemore, translation: saya ada masa sehingga forever untuk melayan abang ini, tetapi jika Rena datang, saya mesti up kan muka masam. And being on the sideline since forever, lemme just tell you bitch THAT the guy didnt even appreciate your kekekness. Sesuai lah kerja tu sama ko , kalau ko alright macam aku SURE ko kerja tempat lagi best. So I came back to collect and cepat2 dia pass me my photos. U KNOW WHY? Because I was friendly with her boss lah thats why! Apa, just because I'm shy DOESNT mean I cant pull things here and there bah bitch, U HAVE NOT seen what I can do. So before I leave, I made sure I say a big thank you to Mr. Uncle. Down bitch. Goodbye.

Which bring me to us girls trying so hard to get a man.
I don't think its the same with Mr Masculine because they do have certain control in this matter. In our case, we'd pull ALL THE NASTY to get the man. Whats the saying again? All fair in love and war? best woman wins? Dui tolonglah...yes, yes of course we are suppose to fight for the ultimate Mister but really dong, agak-agak sikit okay. Didnt our parents tell us to duduk bagus2 since small? Easy there okay, perhaps He's just not that into you. Move along.

I went a lot out for my ex.
Look at my bills. And all the while mom thought it was Bestie on the other line.
SO TIDAK BERBALOI. I will definitely have a worthy relationship next time.
And I will not pick a non-ballsy-guy. Macam mana ni, aku sendiri pun sudah ballsy, I need someone more okay, not someone who doesnt know where he's going. (Orang macam ni pun ada di dunia?)

Sometimes I wonder macam mana boss aku tahan with us ladies in the office. We have more ladies than men. Its like satu2 pour their nasty thought to him and I bet he corners everything to justify back. And even in the office pun ada try hards punya jenis. MY GOD, tiada belajar civik ka dari rumah? I feel like my nose in goin to bleed everytime I sense something nasty is going on.

Caller : Hello, ada fazlyn?
Me : *fml* uhmm..what is it regarding ya? boleh minta car plate number?
Caller : Aku cari fazlyn bah, pasal kereta aku tu.
Me: Uhmm..kenapa tu ah? *still not admitting*
Caller: Siapaka namanya tu..R*** fazlyn bah.
Me: Ohhhhh ya ya *wth* siapaaaaa niiiieeee? (nada manja kucing)
Caller: Haji J**** bah ni. bla bla bla
*the one with special plate number, I believe to be one of the most berduit in the federal land*

Aku macam cannot believe someone would address me using my middle name. Dewasa ini.
Made my first online purchase from amazon.com end of last month. Yippie. USD58=RM203
not so yippie. But not bad lah, dont have to wait for months for the books.

Just found out and came to my old lady sensed that, it was jealousy all these while.
Adoi, if only I knew earlier, could have benefit SO MUCH. But the most important thing is I finally knew. Punya kesian loser loser itew. I'd probably masuk rehab if I'm one of them.

Enough complaints for this July post. From now on, back for more complaints mwehehehe.
Miaw.

Not many stories as per right now.

2010-06-25T23:14:00.002+08:00

Why ya?
Less drama?
Less happening things around?

It took me 8 long months to get over it.
It normally took that long also.
Only realize it now.
Hmmm..9th mth feels much much better.

More story soon yo.

1Love.

Bulan Enam.

2010-06-11T13:51:00.002+08:00

I am employee of the month once again. Wuhuuuuuuuu.
I have discounted myself too much all this life. So yes, I deserve everything good coming my way because I have been good to everything and everyone. Infact, I don't remember WHY I need to discount good things to myself anymore. So here's to a new half year, calling more and more good things to come to me because I deserve it.

I know when the management go on praising like this, mesti ada orang tidak senang hati and boring and rasa nak muntah BUT why should I care pasal orang lain kan...this is my moment, I did SO MUCH and I need to get back what I deserve. And one would say, we are not on the top most of the time, we might go down one day, TAPI one day tu cerita kemudian, I want to be happy everyday and everytime and its not like I've never been bottom low before. Yes, life is a circle.

"Sometimes the human heart has to be broken before it can truly be open"

I've been wrong for not accepting that we are all different. My happiness is not the same with others. I tried changing my mentality by accepting that our ways are different and I cannot force people to follow my way. Felt almost much better. Suka hati orang la apa orang nak buat. Janji me and the familia happy.

Middle 20 is "very hard" for a single girl. You go on wondering when is The Arrival scheduled for you. Sometimes its ok to rock alone, sometimes thats all you can think about. Sometimes you wonder is it pathetic to think so much about it. Sometimes you get pissed because how come orang lain sibuk2 ni, aku ok ja pun teda masalah. I choose to believe all this arrangement is a big secret. I mean, kalau orang cakap2 pun..and then later I get The Very Best, apa orang boleh cakap lagi kan. The most important thing is to stay happy and be a good person.

"Our eyes have to be washed clear with tears before they can truly SEE"

Aku lama tidak mendapatkan bag baru. OK roxy, here I come. Bye bye overtime money.
And purse ugh my purse has ripped. Bye bye o.t money one more time.

More in June!

5 Days Cuti.

2010-05-30T21:13:00.003+08:00

Kotobian Tadau Tagazo Do Kaamatan.
Happy harvest to all the borneons. Yes 5 days cuti wuhuuuu good good good.
NOT SO GOOD. My printer broke down @ hangkang last Thursday, and I have to email so many things in order to get the co's technician to come have a look. Damn. I think it'll be more emails after this THEN he'll arrive. Shit. Meaning I have to go to another department to borrow the damn printer. We only have 3 in this co. Cis cis cis. Did you know that I actually dreamt about the technician coming to office to in my order. I'm such a work freak. Wish I could say the same about my personal life!

Something interesting came out on my FB wall this week.
But really, to curse my friend not to get married is like bringing nenek kebayan to a whole new level. Every one should have their say, what matters is I HOLD THE TRUTH hahahahaha.
I do ok. No kidding. I always do. From who's slacking and who's banging, I ALWAYS get the truth out of some coincidence. In fact, dari muka and gaya orang pun AKU TAU la baik buruk.
(I wonder what people have to say about me hahahahahahahah tapi tak payah la comment kalau setakat to get back, the truth matters MOST alright!)

On a more kurang ajar news. 2 guys commented that I look pregnant. fml.
Its one thing when people ask bila kawin, but to be told that I look pregnant??
I blame it on my tight skirt and loose top. SHIT sungguh salah combination itew.
And I have round tummy problem arghhhh noooo malasnya exercise. And sometimes I eat nonstop like mad. Ok, gotta go back to my pre-puasa cycle.

Its June already, which means half year sudah lalu..which means there's no hope for what I thought was on the way, which by the way I can write here because cover line maaa..malu la kalau orang tau what I was hoping for...(and no ngoks, not kawin)

WHICH BRINGS ME TO ISU KAHWIN. Oh I feel so daring to finally bridge all the sentiments and write what I think. (Ok I'm having 2nd thought on this hahahahahaha)

Because I'll only settle for FT.
(Sangat daring, sgt menyampah, sgt tidak peduli hahahhahaha)

Some people really don't get that EVERYONE IS DIFFERENT.
You might want shit but I want FT..see.. lain kan?
Apa boleh buat...I'll just pray for all this nonos to be granted better thinking.

I hope Mr. Technician will be comingggggggg...I want my printer backkkkkkkk...

Office Lover, Me!
****************

Tiada logika.

2010-05-01T22:22:00.005+08:00

Tarik nafas dan mulakan hari baru yang menggembirakan/menggumbirakan.
I mean come on, life isnt THAT BAD okay. Shoutout to all the negative people out there, lets change to being happy. Lets not be evil, pay a little visit to this fairy happy land. Come on.

And still NO. I don't want anybody elses life.
I can improve my own damn life. Don't bring in the dirts about maybe I can want your life.
TAK NAK. Would never trade keindahan yang aku rasa sekarang with anything else.

So pity people with too much negativity in them. How do they make love?
Is there a pity quota going on that I don't know of? Killjoy, killjoy.

Ya, itulah yang aku mahu komplen. Sangat tidak suka orang2 negative yang extreme yang tidak melihat sebarang hope dalam hidup ini. Miserable sungguh life sebegitu ya. But I guess He arranged for the better. Yalah, aku happy sekarang tak tau later happy or not...orang2 negative ni sad sepanjang zaman kot hahahahahaha soriiiii, naik lori.

Juga rasa sangat penat perlu menghadapi orang2 yang tak reti bahasa (mak bapak tak reti ajar-failed parents) yang cuba "memaksa" dan "memancing" saya menerima pendapat mereka yang sungguh out of my life itu. I mean unless I came from you vajayjay, don't bother forcing me to accept your mentality. I don't take miserable options in my life. Let me ride my way, because if I fail, then you can laugh at me and I won't blame you. See, I'm actually thinking about your benefits here.

Tapi ini adalah perkara yang agak often perlu dihadapi. Sometimes saya kena grill pada hari2 tertentu oleh morons2 tertentu.Look here moron, why take such commitments if you are so unhappy with it? Tak ke bodoh namanya tu. Some losers actually thought that I'll get burned and get upset over this grilling? Oh ho ho nice try, come again. Saya JARANG tersasar dari landasan. One moron actually commented to a mate that he didn't get my reaction, there was no anger, no sadness BAHAHAHAHA thats because there wasnt any on myside. Dunno about his. HAHAHAAHAHAHAH!

Queen : Its ok sue, ada banyak cara dalam dunia ni, you and them both want to "get there" right? Its just that cara berbeza. Its not like you understand or accept their way. Just like they don't accept yours. Takpelah...

Me : So macam mana sekarang?

Queen : You carry on with your way.

Its such a blessing to hear this from her. Alhamdulillah.
I hope you hear good things from your Queen too.

So I'll quit here tonite. Remember that sometimes, sorry is not enough; u have to change.

Not me.

2010-04-27T00:33:00.003+08:00

"I do not settle for less. Nope. Never. Not in my world.
No I don't.
I would say you should step up in this lifetime and compliment yourself by choosing only the right and happy thing for you BUT if you are comfortable hidup susah, sakit hati all the time and live in misery, then I shall bid you well luck and may you enjoy your ride.
I, however do not EVER want to be in such LONG TERM misery therefore PLEASE respect and understand that I'm NEVER EVER going to be in your misery team. Never.
Mark my words. Never."

Come on, lets be OK!

2010-04-21T02:09:00.005+08:00

Hatiku di atas bawah, aku mahukan lebih sentiasa di atas.

Its so funny how in a tiring moment that the sweetest thing can be listening to you loved ones laughter. For me its my family and closest and somehow, their laughter made me smile for a while.
What a long long soap opera this is. Been 2 years plus AND here I still am, trying my best to be okay, to be fine, to be the perfect daughter and to not mind them who's really happy behind my back. I wonder what it really takes to wipe all the bad nostalgic away. Been years, aint proud, still trying.

Maybe there's no such thing as cure. Maybe time shall tell my happiness.
Waiting waiting waiting...
Is it to much to want everything as soon as possible?
Maybe a.s.a.p can give me a clearance.

Put yourself at my pathetic place. I wonder how people survive or maybe people don't survive but they just go along and play along. Is there such thing as survival? Such paulo coelho moment.

Well, someone commented that I'm full of anger. Another someone said I take too much "inside", so girls, wish me luck on becoming a new "out there" Rena. I know I can. Big time.

Moving on to unsuprising yucky news, a freak pakcik ask me out for lunch today. Must be one of those kifarah moments where God punishes you as a reminder. Pakcik dah la muka macam rabbit, pas tu menggatal way out of the line, jangan2 pakcik ni penjenayah takkkk...
Damn I freak out. Buat malu orang Utara ja...fucker. Here's a piece of advice your daddies should have told you, NEVER hegeh in flirting. It makes you look very creepy.

I am this blessed. I might miss out a lot in male loves (another story, another time) but I still cannot be sad over evilness. Nak buat macam mana right, we Team Fairies is this blessed. Tak boleh buat apa-apa dah. Wanna join us? Go repent.

Contra to what people believe (aku pun tidak tahu mana keluar ini punya mentality), me and the fam, we DO NOT HAVE any problems dalam menerima orang yg bukan macam kami. MEANING, it doesnt really matter WHERE you are from, if you ARE certified an okay person, we welcome you in. (Unless my madame doesnt want you, apa boleh buat saja la) Yang aku tgk, org ja yang ada masalah dengan aku. Budus.

Let me try to be better tomorrow.

TEAM FAIRIES.

Dreams.

2010-04-04T23:52:00.002+08:00

I believe in miracle.
I believe in there's good for everyone.
I believe God isnt evil.
And most importantly,
I believe in God, Allah SWT.

I hear a lot dissapointment from people close to me.
I am disspointed with certain "arrangement" too but that doesnt mean that I'm letting go my trust, my dream and my fairytale. Maybe its because I havent seen much, unlike them, who have seen and felt almost too much. What if I've eaten all the dirts like them? Will I still be here hoping for my miracle? Hard to say, but things happen for a reason. Ada sebab kot why I'm not tested that hurtful way? and minta dijauhkannnnnnnnnnnnnn.

There can be miracle when you believe :)

Jalan.

2010-03-12T22:11:00.004+08:00

Have you ever reach a point where BIG terrible things in the past doesnt matter ANYMORE?

WOW.
I am here.

Alhamdulillah.

Love life.

Happy March.

2010-03-06T02:23:00.004+08:00

Bags and a devoted cute guy can never hurt.

I run out of blog title ideas. So lets just enjoy March okays?

Bought a new bag today. A Guess no less.
But nothing to brag about. Parkson is on 40% cutoff.
So ok jugalah. You should know by now that saya minat gila handbags. I havent venture out to other major datin labels, but who knows I might in the future.
Datin labels can be so freaking mommies, my point of view.
Except for Chanel, I've seen a few cool and acceptable ones for me. My take on buying 3 figures price bag is to go branded. Add a little cash, and thats that.
Anyway, I'm not stopping at one bag, saw another pink one (so MANY others), might take that as well, would look grand with jeans and my pinks collection.
RM is not from salary...but ANGPOWS kekekeke..thank you dealers. I welcome more handshakes kekekeke.

Going for training on the 17th & 18th at Bangi. fml.
I'm going alone, this gotta sucks. Just gonna freakin get on with it. Get it done.
Hi, saya Rena. Saya benci socializing.

Feeling a little bored, empty and lonely. NO. Don't want a partner this soon. But wouldnt hurt right if he's on the way? Hahahahahaha hey a girl can always wish riteee?

Office life is boleh la so far. I mean bitches and bastards will always be there.
And good girls like me?
Well..we gotta get down with gangsters.
Tell you more another time ya?
Oh just so everybody knows, he loves me first.
Tell you another time.

Planning for a hair cut tomorrow.
Bla bla always plan and tak jadi. Will make sure this time jadi.

Thats all for early March.
Have great month ahead. Love love.

The moment.

2010-02-28T00:20:00.000+08:00

Some people wait a life time...

Some people search forever...

Sorry.

2010-02-21T18:53:00.004+08:00

I am watching this debate in CNN in regards of Tigers apology.
AH TEDA LAH TU.
I don't think a man can ever be sorry after he cheated.
Sex + man = sorry? I don't think so.
And there was a lot of sex going on between tiger and his ladies. Even when he's legal lady was pregnant. Even then...The acts with other ladies went on-on their very very respectful bedroom. Should he be forgiven? Yes, duh. I mean he's mom already commented that he isn't God. But what he did was truly wayyyyyyyyyyy out of the cheating line. I wonder will his wife forgive and take him back? Would it be easy to forget?

Entahlah but I think its such a pain and heart smacking when your husband cheated with several women and during pregnancy somemore. BUT I know in every modern mind, there's always the nevermind thinking, the tak apa, the move on. So it depends la to every mind to choose whats best for them. Kalau aku..HEH...sori naik lori lahhhhh....

Oh I'm such a sucker for happily ever after. Sorry hehehehe.

When is the heart going to be at the right place?

2010-02-18T00:34:00.007+08:00

No, this is not a love entry.

6th year, after everything nearly came together, I'm starting to feel UGH with the job.
Kalau ikutkan aku, kalau banyak duit, I feel like going for a long vacay @ places yang ada snow. FUH. there I typed that. Super relieve. Suka hati la, blog aku. Bukan blog mak kau.

This work-till-you-drop style really worn me off. Aku sangat "give-up", not literally.
It doesnt help with a few sick dramas between the mates.
Oh saya sangat benci drama drama bodoh yang buang masa.
Any Tan Sris around to take care of me?
Hahahaha I'm old, I personally think you have to be much younger if you
wanna catch a big fish as your provider.

So yeah..travel-snow...oh please dont advice
GENTING HIGHLANDS.
That I can do any 2 days in KL.

I miss kampung so much. I miss my aunts there.
Nothing.in.this.world.can.give.me.happiness.like.my.family.
NOTHING.
Thats why I'm thankful for my fam,
god knows how "un-rich-able" we are but
ko punya bapak punya tanah pun tak boleh beli that kind of happiness.

Hopefully one day, god put an end to my empty misery.
Siapa tau kan?

Bring all the lucks in for Tiger 2010.
Gong Xi Ni.

XX Ren emo XX

Bila aku balik- balik kena...

2010-02-13T18:00:00.002+08:00

Everyone who knows me SHOULD know by now that I only stick to my family and very close, exclusive, selected friends. Aku nda kacau hidup orang, aku nda bad mouth, I don't try to make people's life difficult. Saya orang Islam dan parents saya memang manusia paling bagus lah dalam dunia, who taught me and bro to NOT treat people like shit. I'm proud to announce here my parents are like one of those yang really succeed in bringing us up to become humans. I mean I've seen and known parents who brought up monsters, and this post is not about that kind of parents.

All I do since I was small was stick to my mom, do my house things and show my true colour only at home, meaning I don't deal with outsiders. And dari kecil juga lah I have people getting jealous at me, yours truly, Miss Nothing. I mean what issit that you are so jealous of? The height? Get heels. The nose? Try getting surgery. And I look cool because I ONLY DO AND CHOOSE WHAT I LIKE. For instance, I love MTV and disco beats. Aku nda susah2 berpura2 that I like indies. But if I find them cool and likeable for me, then aku suka juga lah.

Going into my teen years UGH nda payah cakaplah, ada saja unexpected "things", and don't say I'm over reacting because the naive me knows how to think ok. Sometimes I have to leave up to my mistakes also right, like maybe I showed-off a little about my life. But when your friends consistently don't share your happiness, what does that mean? I feel like I need to do something really out of the world, kasi sakit hati ni orang semua until they commit suicide. THERE.

AND NOW WE COME INTO mid 20s and WE STILL MAINTAIN THE SAME BS.

The 1st year I joined the office, punyalah teruk tu jealousy like fuck me, did I wrongly sleep witht their partners? I mean I have older,senior staffs who spread malicious lies and accusation about me like how I bad-mouth them to the boss, how I do only small amount of work, how the boss took my side in everything. See this is how your mind works if U EAT DIRT. I wonder what will happen if I slept with the boss, aku rasa ni orang semua terjun bangunan. Fark.

So entering the 6th year of my work life, I HAVE TO GO THROUGH THIS JEALOUS SHIT ONE MORE TIME AND I HATE IT AND I HOPE THAT PERSON WHO IS OLDER, CAN DO SOME THINKING OR MAYBE ASK THE PARENTS TO HELP THINK CORRECTLY BECAUSE WE DON'T WANT ANYONE TO SUFFER AFTER GOD MADE HIS BRILLIANT ARRANGEMENT.

OK after typing all this anger out, I also want to state that I'm a brilliant person HAHAHAHA kalau dia buat kacau, dia ingat aku nda boleh buat kacau ka? Nooooooo...I'm they type who leaves the repayment to God. Biar la bah orang mau buat yang bukan2, the time will come and God will take care of everything. And I have seen how things are taken care of HAHAHAHA itulah aku nda berani buat benda bukan2. Repayment is in cash honeyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

Thats the first story.
Second story is the ex is trying to force me to take him back. AIYOHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
cukup2 lah tu brother and I'm starting to believe that Exes cannot be friends.

I also cannot believe I only have that to say about the man that I used to be SOOOOOO crazy about. Lust doesnt last. Now I know.

Kenapakah aku asyik mimpi pasal kahwin ni? Too much fairytale thoughts in my mind perhaps.
Its happening 2 more yrs, I want to ride happiness first :)

I'll be back with more juice, hopefully not about jealousy HAHAHAHA
TC

XX Ren down XX

Pet peeves to a major hate.

2010-02-06T20:39:00.002+08:00

1) Rude spouses : Happens a lot to weak women who thinks that they only deserve that kind of best. No dearie, its not in trend anymore. Communist can't make comebacks. And hey you man, is your heart really that fragile? I mean, I thought only us ladies get hearty. Live up the d1ck.

2) Pendengki : My god, my god, my Allah. This is getting so ridiculous that I don't know how to configure or understand how one ends up being a silly-sick-to-the-heart-jealous. Adui nak, don't you worry everybody is meant for a certain degree happiness. Yes. No kidding. Your time will come, He has arranged a fantastic one. Relax kau ok?

3) Hard headed-not able to accept other people's choices : Fuck my life. Not everyone is into blogging and FB you know. Some like to loiter outside this world. As long as it aint hurting us, biarlah bah orang lain have their likeness and hobbies. Biarkan, biarkan.

4) Hot tempered to the core : Astagah. Did your dog died so you became this? Adoiiiii why the fock do you blame other people for your wrong? Let me state this clearly, its not them, ITS YOU. Try rehab, try help-classes or as my mother would advice, talk to god.

5) Ill-mouthed biatches (men included) : Ko nda takut ka orang doakan ko accident? Hahahahaha! Oklah, we make it simple lah for you. Stop.eating.dirts. Easy kan?

6) Team one way only : Sorry, you aint maksum. U gonna make mistakes. U gonna have to turn around and meet in the middle and its not bad at all. Trust me. I was from this one way team. Ha-ha-ha.

7) Team me,myself and I : No. not going to do. This life and world is a biggggggg drama, we don't want your story all the time, we get bored and tired and malasnya mau dengar and we cursed you for repeating. (And when you say "kalau nda suka, jangan dengar", we curse you more because WHY ARE YOU STILL NOT OVER YOUR TALKS????) Let other people be the main character too ok? Your time will come again. Life's a cycle anyway.

8) "Itu" : Yes, we get it. Your sex life is super. Some of us here belum lagi merasa, unlike the cool you. But we don't need to hear the tease like all the time because then we'd pity you because if you have to brag so much about it maksudnya it wasn't that great la bah. Which makes you a loser already. And unless we asked, or we are closed friends, please do not get into details about it because GELI BAH and I might vomit. I imagine I can vomit. Now ko pulak geli kan? Ha. There.

9) Your money doesnt make you God : Nuff said.

10) Shit, I don't have a great pic for FB profile pic. Majorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

XX Ren doing great, doin great XX

Alif Lam Lam Ha.

2010-01-09T16:08:00.006+08:00

He is Allah. One.
He begets not, nor was He begotten.
And there is non comparable to Him.

He does not give birth, nor was He born, because
There is nothing that is born except that it will die, and
There is nothing that dies except that it leaves behind inheritance, and indeed
Allah does not die and
He does not leave behind any inheritance.

There is none comparable to Him. This means
There is non similar to Him, none equal to Him and
There is nothing at all like Him.

.: Al-Ikhlas :.

XX Ren needs to understand and learn more about Islam, jangan lalai. XX

2010.

2010-01-01T19:01:00.003+08:00

Its a new year again.
Ho ho ho. Happy new 2010 to everyone esp. my girlfriends.

No new reso so far because I never care to follow anyway. Ikut kepala sendiri ja.
One thing for sure, I am not going to list the "find-mr-right" as priority or even list it in my list. 08 and 09 was SO drenched with nonsense that I'm all set to make life happier and easier from now on. I gotta say that this whole man finding mentality began when I started to want what ladies around me are having - a steady partner. And honestly, I don't need one this soon. I'm happy with fam, work and my ahem, my bags. Kalau ada, ada laaaaa..tiada then tidak apa.

Work wise, boss said something about *I don't want to put it out, yet*.
Hahahaha..I dunno wether it can be done or not, but it made my year end so so sweet.
Will look forward to it this 2010. Manalah tau kannnnnnnnnnnn...
Customers come and go, am used to a lot of BS already. Tak kisahhhh bring it on.

Friendship wise, the real ones stayed and I have moved away from the not so real ones. Sometimes its not so much about the others kan, I want myself to be happy too. So kalau tak sesuai, apa boleh buat, seperate saja lahhh...

When the truth is out and you see it with your big eyes, awwwww punya suckyyyyy and how you start to view and replay it in your mind lagi suckyyyyy. Why oh why tak boleh clear history like mozilla? Kekekekeke

Happy 2010 once again.
Have a better year and choose to be happy ok?

XX Ren can't believe BRO reached this blog already
OH NO -nightmare-, wei ini untuk girlfriends saja ok!!! Go layan your BB la XX

L.a.z.y

2009-12-23T23:56:00.002+08:00

Saya sangat benci dengan orang yang malas di office atau orang yang malas dan menyusahkan orang lain. THERE. I said it. I mean why bother working if you are SO lazy? Sleep at home, don't come for work, let someone else who can work have your salary. Better yet, drop life. Don't live. Just freaking go somewhere and bring your drama away.
I mean really, why bother breathing? Drop all ok?

Aku paling paling paling benci orang malas dan menyusahkan terutama time kerja. Ughhhhh, the company must have made a mistake, it must be the pity that got them the job. This people can't freaking work?? I know I sound as if I know better. But I do know better. I feel like I bloody deserve my monthly pay (and FYI, I THINK I deserve all this lazy people's pay also).

I HATE LAZY PEOPLE AT WORK.

XX Ren peninggggggggggggggggggg XX

Never.

2009-12-17T00:20:00.003+08:00

"Tuhan tidak akan menduga kita lebih daripada apa yang kita mampu tanggung"

Can't wait for a new year. 2+5 kan?

XX Ren still believes in kuwentong pambata XX

My Therapy :)

2009-11-29T00:21:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHA.
I bought a new kring!kring!
Anggap saja la ini xmas gift/therapy gift to myself.
Hahahahaha..wah 2 years sudah my xmas gift is a kring!kring.
Man, next year apa la aku beli tu ah.. i KRiNG mungkin?! Bet u don't get that. Nvm.
What kind did I buy? Hehe, blogged about it before..rajin-rajin la checkout my previous post.
Maybe I should take up photography, and go all out for this new hobby.
Bestie said something about having a same hobby and enjoying it together. DSLR for free any1?
KESKES.

I saw rainbow this afternoon.
Jarang sudah nampak tau. Always in a building everyday.
Made me feel 6 again ;)
Anyway, had a longggggggggggggggggggggg walk today for my purchase, dude I wish I have a driver and a companion. Half way walking I feel like my kaki jam ni. Thank god made it home safely, buatnya aku terbaring di mana-mana, how memalukan is that??!!
Tapi sampai rumah kaki (thigh actually) pun mcm mau tercabut. Mom is so pissed that I walk that far, "kenapa tidak naik bus?" Ugh, I try to avoid the bus on weekends, mesti fulllllllll to the max and so uncomfortable standing. Nda mau. Hehehe now padan muka, peha mau tercabut sudahhhh...thank god 2moro is Sunday, I'd prolly lie down and sambung urut-urut untill my thigh is happy :)

Well this entry pasal mau cerita beli barang baru jaaa hehehe
Oh yes yes, 1 more news worthy is I'm going back to Johor this coming Thurs, and will be landing back here on the 07th. Rasa macam looking forward plakkkkkkkkk been moths since I last see kampung. Can't wait to see aunts there, and our rumah kampung HAHAHAHAHA
I wonder kalau bawa future hubs pigi rumah Johor mesti terkeluar biji mata HAHAHAHAH
nvm, I'll bring him to kampung Negeri juga to even things out (CONFIRM TERKELUAR DUA DUA BIJI MATA-one for Johor, one for N9) Weird, weird kampung.

Actually aku mau pi beli bag bah tadi @Roxy Warisan.
But PUNYA BANYAK ORANG. PUNYA TRAFFIC JAM INSIDE.
Argh sayangnya I'll be buying later with the ori price. Celaka sungguh.

I better have my sleep. I need to straighten my thigh :(

Nite grrrrls.
Kring! Kring!
:)

XX Ren can't believe the happy feelings nowwwwww XX

Going Down.

2009-11-25T17:51:00.003+08:00

Kadang2, adalah sangat susah facing keadaan macam taik yang berlaku dalam hidup ini.
I'm 24 for bitch sake, why can't faith let it go and give me my marvelous life like before? Fucking hard. I'm not complaining or staying sad or anything because I've gone thru much worst and hidup juga kan, still as glorious as before, still lining up my bags and books.
But this time, ada susah sikit la..so hard so hard so hard. Tapi aku tau, as time goes by, I will stop thinking so much about the stupid pain and the stupid man. I hope it doesn't take such a long time, I need more happiness (like before). I'm giving time until end of this year, which roughly tinggal one more month...arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, let this pass, free me from this ugly feeling!!!

"Kalau mau keadaan berubah, kita sendiri pun kena berubah"
-Me, end of 09-

XX Ren, day by day XX

Secrets.

2009-11-17T20:38:00.002+08:00

Nah, not going to blab about my heartbreak anymore.
Hatiku sudah semakin ok, no looking back, am only aiming to be happier.
(Although everyone knows that I'm a fairy, still, am NOT wishing somebody on his birthday this year. Brother, sorrylah, even fairies have their limits NGEHNGEH.)

I often often look at people's life and stay awe.
Macam I'm soooooooooo blodeh impress with them. Like I don't have much.
I used to HATE rich people so much. I'd be like, how on earth did they get THAT lucky?
Then mum mesti jawab "keturunan bah tu". But still, its like the money doesnt end for them.
Macam on going free flow. Damn them. Then work happens, started to rotate function, met MORE (real) people, and I'm just occupied more with job and MY life. I'm not in awe anymore (sorry). I don't think I want the income-tax drama, I don't want the scandals, I don't want the anger, I don't want that kind of sadness and pain. And money doesnt buy my happiness anymore. You can have my lust, but not my happiness, never. I guess I'm no longer THAT girl with hopes for a rich dick. And if happiness for you is only about sex and money, we are not on the same page then, which is fine. Everyone is different.

I'm glad I'm already at the stage where I (mostly) understand what I want.
I don't want a messy life. Saya kan accountant HAHAHAHAHA!!!!

Then theres coupledom, was hopingggggggggggggggggggggg so much for a steady partner.
(Sekejap, baca sampai habis sebelum judge). Maybe because I've never tasted the relationship thing, thought too much about meeting Mr Right. Seriously too much. I must have confused myself. Note to self: don't ikut2 orang, nanti sendiri rugi. And I don't need advises (fuiyohhh sombonggggg), I know my thing in relationship.

Sangat ngantuk, esok blog lagi sebab saya cuti WUHU!

XX Ren stays better XX

The New Beginning.

2009-11-08T22:28:00.003+08:00

Sunday night so boring. Tomorrow is another longggg Monday, there's files, there's customers, there's datelines. Long boring day. But I rather work on Monday. Kalau cuti lagi sadis, its going to be a longer Tuesday then...arghhhhhh bencinya office girl life. But it pays the bags and other items, so ride it saja lahhhh...

I'm holding on fine.
Masa dapat tau the cheating episode pun I was really calm about it (you can ask bestie).
I guess I KNEW from the beginning that I wanted too much and he's just a dick.
I mean come on, a dick cannot give back too much. They are only good for the wet lick.
I'm still a little pissed and ashamed of this whole mess, but already cried a whole nite 2 days after I found out. Before my 24th no less. Bravo.
It helps soooo much to hope he'll suffer the acid shit later. Honestly, I'm really hoping something no good will happen to this mf, just so that he understands everything.
Tapi mana ada macam tu kan? They men wouldn't get it. Tak faham faham.
Sex boleh pulak faham. Creatures.
As for the new gf (I don't know how many other holes he's been keeping), I've been at your "precious" place for 2 yrs, so am just gonna say that, the sms and sex will expired soon, so use your 30-something brain and figure things out ok? I'm not even suppose to be angry at her and I don't think I am anymore, but she seems to enjoy the "lurve" even after knowing what a dick he is. Wish you two luck? Can't wait for the explotion and honeymoon, suckers.

The truth is...

Aku ni kecoh ja bah. Its not like I really wanna be with him.
Even if he dropped all the other holes, I'll be like..mana bulih ni..I don't think I want you-ever-
But the feeling of losing sucks okkkk..talked to bestie how good it feels to see him lose everything
and suffered hahahaahahha..ya ya we girls can be evil when you are bad to us.
But when you are nice to us, we are wayyyyyyyyyyy nicer okayyyy....
If dick comes begging I feel like patting his head, sorry dear, look for other holes okkkk..

Boringnya blab about the breakup.
But it helps bahhhhh, it helps a lot..I am better everyday...
(I'll be at my best when I receive the ugly about dick keskeskes)
Ok enough rite? Its never going to be enough until I recovered which hopefully will be before new year. Cewahhhhhhh me and my timing, I love timings.

What do I do now?
Retail therapy, books, dvds, check out butts available out there, travelling, making my parents happy, laugh a lot, hope for the best and and and pray for FT! And I forget makannnnnn....
Sigh, to all the single butts out there, make yourself available, I've been closed for 2 years, I'm back looking okayyyyyyyy :)

Other than that...I have more stories actually hahahahaha saving that for my lonely nights later boleh juga mengumpat di sini kan.

Good Night everybodehhhhhhhhhhhh.
Good Bye cheater.

XX Ren wants ... hehe, not telling yet XX

Big Deal.

2009-11-04T20:32:00.003+08:00

1. 24 passes like normal days. Birthday saja maaa..bukan aku give birth HAHAHAHA
Sometimes I feel like I need babies in my life, mereka sungguh cuteeeeee, and to make babies, mesti mau ada hubby kan? Oh no no no postpone dulu. Me and Men at the moment cannot masuk satu cerita, we'll see, we'll see...

2. Break ups are baddddddddddddd. bad. bad.
Punya shitty tuuu. The pain, the longing, the curses. Tapi biasalah kan, 1st fall is like that.
I'd be better next time. And to give up is the saddest.

3. Racist people can go fuck their faces. I don't even know whats the hatred about.
Bodoh, bodoh.

4. I want that newwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww...no, not begs.
I'll keep you updated soon ok. Hopefully lah..hehehe..

5. Not much, not much.

XX Ren is finez :) XX

The 1st crashed.

2009-10-23T21:36:00.002+08:00

Sedih sudah, marah sudah, dissapointed sudah, pendek kata SEMUA sudah. What is left now is basically, I don't know what, but somehow, macam penat yang sudah habis, burden yang sudah hilang, which I know is good for me, good for my life. But somehow masih rasa not so ok lah...This is the end of a sorrow season, so nda apalah, I'll just take the shit first and deal with my closing later. The great closing.

I cannot believe that I fell for this useless relationship.
I feel like cursing him BUT nda payah la...I was 'with' him once, so kiranya he isnt that bad BUT STILL, I could have DONE BETTER.
I cannot believe he is not The One. But I was expecting so much from this 1st relationship, my fault also.
I cannot believe I have prepared 2 names for "our" children (FUCK. WTH, Honestly you guys, I KNOW I CAN DO BETTER THAN BE WITH THIS JERK!!!!)
I cannot believe how much he disrespected me, my feelings and life. And I continued having him IN my life, aku pun nda tau kenapa. Kena baca2 kali SHESSSHHHHH.
I cannot believe I, somehow accepted the idea of sleeping with him.
(All together now, MUNTAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH)
So did I sleep with him? NO silly. I said accepted the idea ok.
And yang paling lucu la kan...I caught him cheatinggggggggg OMG... The real story should only stay with mom,sis and bestie but aku mau cakap la kan, kalau JAHAT akhirnya nampak juga HAHAHAHAHA OK now I have this feeling that some girl would say I'm stupid for taking all this shit, and I take that. I have nothing to defend but I was offering very genuine feelings to him. But oh, guys don't really care right? Janji dapat lubang hahahahhahaha buduh.

Come to think about it, was it really my 1st love? Atau major lust?
Could be that I was lusting after him saja bah because he was a major romeo and sweet talker, sepa nda suka dengar kan? Well, due to respect towards his family and HIS NEW GF (rolleyes,rolleyes,rolleyes) let me keep some curses and cerita tidak baik to myself (and bestie, and sis).

I learn that the best cure for heartache is cursing and badmouthing your ex partner, not untill the extend of spreading ugly stories la, but just sharing with your close ones betapa teruk and shitty ex kamu itu. Ahhhh lega lega lega kekekekeke.

My 24 is next week. Bro promised a cpu for me KEKEKEKEKE and I'm getting that half a thousand bag. Woooohoooooooooooooooo...and I'm not a receiving gift kinda girl so let me sleep this 24 kekekekekeke.

I hope your fairytale came true, my 1st journey to it crasheddddddd but BANYAK lagi peluang bah.

Lets chill this weekend.
I think I need a new hobby.

XX Ren will never give for another fairytale XX

Finale.

2009-10-10T19:58:00.003+08:00

I can see the pain living in your eyes
And I know how hard you try
You deserve to have much more
I can feel your heart and I sympathize
And I'll never criticize
All you've ever meant to my life

I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
I don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong

You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say but goodbye

You deserve the chance at the kind of love
I'm not sure i'm worthy of
Losing you is painful to me

I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
I don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong

You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say but goodbye

You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to try
Though it's gonna hurt us both
There's no other way than to say goodbye

XX Ren is leaving all behind XX

Lost.

2009-10-06T00:23:00.002+08:00

I am not okay.
No amount of love, handbags, dudes, -sex-, or positiveness could guide me out.
This is bad, this is sad.
Pills anyone?
How long will I take to be okay?
When will I know I'll be okay?
I don't know.
To those who have 'it' already, bravo. I'm no where nearby.
Will I ever be near? No. Maybe.

This has to be the suckiest moment in my 20s.
It couldnt suck more than this.
Pls pls pls let this pass. Pls.
Don't give me another heartache after 2 years.

The swear? I mean it so much.
Did I begin wrong?

Headache.
Guide me pls. Guide me in this terrible mess.

Is Fairytale really too much to ask?

XX Ren not feeling fine, not at all XX

I'm 24 this month,I'm moving on and Life is Great.

2009-10-02T23:56:00.002+08:00

It has finally, seriously ended this time.
I thank Him for granting my answers (prayers), and I shall work the hardest for my future undertakings, and ahem, Fairytale. (Regardless of what you say,I know you say there's no tales for us orang biasa, but you let me do the hardwork ok? After I have my tales, do stay and be happy with me!)

Holly-crap.
Who in the world falls for a creep equivalent to a kept-man.
Your friend over here, THATS WHO!
I'm not dead or anything (at least), so let me do my future walk alrightssssssss....
Since this is already a wrap-up and its the final episode, let me begin with saying that I'm so embarassed with my kelakuan and I should have known better SINCE everyone knows I'm all the way guarded and I'm good with thinking.But benda sudah terjadi,what more can I say? I'll continue this journey and hope for a better (best) future!
Are shows allowed for comebacks? Tapi show yang ini SUPER SHITTY ok, so I will not agree for future comebacks. I might give spinoffs a thought, featuring ME only ok. Pls don't bring back lame characters.

Hmmm this is how it feels after you get your answer. Agak best and agak tidak best juga.
Honey, if its crap since the beginning and continuosly crappy memang CRAP lah is the answer. I was blinded before with all my pathetic excuses because I wanted to stay. Heck, why make him a priority when u r just an option?

Is sex really that exciting?
Is life all about sex-ing around?
Sex dengan handbag, mana lagi best? HAHHAHAHAHAHHA nevermind.
I guess sex is the thang but takkan la ituuuuuuu saja for life.
I mean didnt He put down so many things in the Holy Book?
Forgive me for this,but I'm still looking out for life. So ignore the clueless bit ok?

I'm buying a new handbag again for my 24th end of this month. I think the price is RM400 so mintak mom and bro half half lah hehehehhehe, see I know what I want. Mom said she's going to line up all my bags on my grave PUNYALAHHHHHHHHHH hahahhahahha!

I havent wish semua orang Selamat Hari Raya Adifitri,Maaf Zahir Batin.
Hope you had a fun raya, mine was boring, nda balik kampung.

I'll blog more about updates later!
I love all my girlfriends.

Nite.
Pls forget all your bad dreams! Hehe...

XX Ren thinks 2009 is full of sorrow,sorrow. NO MORE NOW XX

Why does love always feel like a battlefield?

2009-09-06T16:43:00.004+08:00

Ah drama giler my title kan.
And btw,mua is still not in a relationship altho I'm still holding my heart to my 1st love, who in my record is a MF,but you know what they say right (I wonder who decide how They holds the power), I'll move on very very soon and I'll have my single heart back and will be fine again.
Its been nearly 2 years lah...I swear man, not gonna give out my lurve easily in the future.

I love ramadhan. I love foods. I love the serenity. I love finishing at 5pm everyday tho sometimes I'm still there until nearly six, but what can I say, love my files damn too much.
Handphone went out of sound a few days ago. Shizzo, didnt encounter this with my previous phone, now its back to normal and I'm hoping it'll stay normal. Come to think of it, macam sayang ja spent nearly 2K for benda yang cepat rosak kan? But as long as it makes me happy and satisfied for owning, then ok la tu. The same goes to my begs actually, most of it sana diam2 in the highest cabinet at home, but again, it gives me satisfaction for owning them. I'm already eyeing two begs and there goes my pay and o.t. Yeeeehaaaa...

Crazy people are still around, don't see how can get rid of these psychos.

Hope I'll be back with morrrre stories.
Enjoy your ramadhan people!

XX Ren needs a CPU XX

Honestly Honest.

2009-08-26T22:57:00.002+08:00

I'm a SOLE proprietor for my happiness.
While thinking and analyzing about everything, I came to that.
I don't know wether its been like this since before or after my 20s but that is that.
I don't wait for people to approve my happiness.
If I'm happy with my terms, then its all ok. But if some else set the terms and I'm not comfortable (or maybe I don't want to give in), I get upset and crappy.
#Lesson for me is to-be-happy. Ok. Faham dah.

Hah. This is the reason WHY I'm single. (plus I'm single because my fear of commitment).
But at the moment, I'm happy with myself, work, fam and friends, and my rm.
So we'll see how it falls in the future, go with the fking flow ok.
HOWEVER, after all this independent talk, I'm still waiting and eye-ing for The One and my fairytale, jadi, again, we follow the flow.

Not much about my work.
I have a nice flowwy purple skirt for work. Yeay hebat!
Can't wait to pakai.

A mate commented I'm a little chubby at my hips.
Thats where my weight goes pulak.
Of course I wish for slim and tight body tapi sorilah, I'm the last girl who would sacrifice for exercise and diet. I'm all about sleepingggggggg zzzzzzz. I don't know if I can put off my chubbiness this Ramadhan, boleh kot? Whatever.

I havent go belanja my salary, which is fantastic and waiting for my hard earning o.t early Sept.
I need a new bag, I want 2 new begs. I don't care about mom's nagging, belanja pizza ok lah tu Hahahahaha. omg, then theres the crown(hair),need to revamp it wuhuhuhuhu.

I'm not comfortable with the H1N1 mask wearing.
I wore for I don't know, 3 hrs yesterday then I can't breath my dizziness spoilt my day.
I guess I would put on if really everyone pakai, but at the mo', its so bikin sesak nafas.

Off to my books and bed.
Good nite girls!

XX Ren wants to go to bazaar, marvelous fooddddddddddddddddddddd XX

Me this Ramadhan.

2009-08-22T00:13:00.002+08:00

Been so long since my last update.
Every night over time, sampai rumah habis energy then kaput.
Repeat for 5 days every week. Punyalah.
Had to anyway, too much work to bring forward, its the same for me and all my mates but they don't have dues for the work. Lain la macam aku, it has to be done in a certain period so there I am until 7.30pm. BS betul kan? I wonder next year ada additional staff or not? Coz we are almost dead doing this business. Roll out the choices and the budget. I hope, I hope.

CPU kaput 2 weeks ago.
The best CPU is around RM1.3K. And I have to cover that on my own because bro has lappie and mom doesnt need it. Ugleh...don't think I'm willing to fork out so much money for a damn CPU. Sungguh pathetic cara saya online. Netbook connected to big monitor, but I'm typing from the book's small keypad. Crap and messy. I can't upload photos, have to go thru bros lappie dulu.
Punyalah. I hope I meet my solution this Ramadhan.

I got to know a guy early of this week.
We'll see how this go for me.
I'm still dazed by my "1st love". So, we'll see again ya...
I don't even know WHY I'm head over heels over nothing.
Because I'm a girl. Thats why. I appreciate ALL the things that I like.

Love aside,
work is soooooooooo making me tired. Ugh, need a good massage, full body ok...
I'm starting to open my mind about lots of things, honestly my tempurung sheltered me for too long, am taking my time to browse, and browse, and I hope I discover s0mething interesting.

Here comes the kicking part,
1)I don't understand WHY people brag about normality. Contohnya mcm beauty,
OMG. Jangan paksa keadaan, the truth ALWAYS going to be the answer. Look carefully and decide.

2)I nearly muntah because this someone smelled sooooooooooo different. Its not the body odour but lain bah bau dia, I can actually feel my big n tasty mcd burger rolling in my stomach, I had prunes later, so nda jadi muntah but it ruined my afternoon!!!

I'm going to start fasting a little late, ish sayangnya.
Anyway its a beautiful month, am looking for more answers this month.
Whats not beautiful is ME havent bayar balik my puasa last year (oh no), oh mannnnn....
Double la this year,dun feel like bringing forward to next year..NOOOOOOOOOOOO!

I need RM1.2K to shop this month.
Yes, calculation done. I'm waiting for my o.t to come out then aku pi lancarkan mission.
YEAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY...and ahem, bro said dia got a lot of extras this month, hebat. Gonna make him buy me a beg, padan muka dia wahahahahahah.

I feel like continuing my blab tomorrow.
Check me out tomorrow okkkkkkkkkkkk.

Selamat Berpuasa everybodehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

XX Ren wants so many things XX

July ends.

2009-08-01T12:09:00.004+08:00

1) Trip to KL was so-so. I wish I had a friend waiting with me. Waiting sux forever.
KL was mad as usual, gila jam, gila ramai orang. I could live there with a degree. Got my colourful watch WUHOOOO, still waiting to wear it, sayanglah hehe. Other than that not much shopping done, as I said earlier, I shop more in KK hahaha. 1st stranger encounter was a big failure. Adakah dia brag pasal his shopping every month in KL. And he spoke in west slang. Sekali tanya, he's from Sabah juga. Ya Allah, I don't even know why sometimes people change their tongue to konon-konon fit in. OMG. But whatever okay, your choice, stay happy.
(Dear future hubby, don't push too hard on the slang ok? Me and fam, we are cool with everything, we don't even have the perfect expected slang. Its fine ok? Mwahhhhh.)

2) New car has arrived. So worth it to see mom and bro happy macam tu.
I wonder how and when can I be that happy?
Hmmmm...when someone wants to take care of me kot...hahahahaha poyo.

3) Such a tiring month end. Arrived at The O a little later than 8.30 for the whole week.
Damn sleepy and flu pills made my eyes droppy. I hope the flu went off already, janganlah kau datang balik.

4) I NEED MORE RM, i need more RM!
When oh when....

It took all the strength I had
not to fall apart.
Just trying hard to mend
the pieces of my broken heart.
And I spent so many nights
just feeling sorry for myself.
I used to cry
but now I hold my head up high.
And you see me, somebody new. I'm not that chained up little person
still in love with you.
And so you felt like dropping in and just expect me to be free
but now I'm saving all my lovin'
for someone who's lovin' me.

Oh go on now go, walk out the door.
Just turn around now
'cause you're not welcome anymore.
Weren't you the one who tried
to break me with goodbyes?
you think I'd crumble?
you think I'd lay down and die?

Cash plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!

XX Ren wants to let go every sad thing XX

5 more days.

2009-07-18T19:41:00.003+08:00

It is so tiring to handle negativity.
Its also a bleurgh taking unhappy craps from people.
Punya penat tu, like for once in your life, can't you just make happiness out of it?
Then there's jealousy, tidak senang tengok orang happy like for mid twenties sake okay, can we all please move the fuck on with this bizarre life so we can be happy at this age. Ugh, penat, penat. Thats the reason why many people don't know My news, malas mau share, nanti itulah, inilah, might as well be happy with mom and bro and thats it. Full stop.

Cameron Diaz (the goddess that I look up to,btw) once said this during an intv,
"People want you to be weak" So true or so false? SO TRUE!
People do change, I'm no longer the tall ponytail girl ok? Deal with it. I have my own plans and opinion. I'm looking forward to a happy life in the future. My job is not the best one can have, but "most" of the mates are OK and I have no problem talking to customers unlike certain mfs. I might change again in the future, but for now, I'm loving ALL this, all that I have. No psychos or shits can bring me down easily. Not anymore. I might keep you down if you insist. Got that? Oh and people choices can be different from us, let it be.

How tiring is the paragraph above? I appreciate blogs, boleh tulis anything and other people might read it and laugh. Thank you very much.

Moving the heart away from 1st love is SO shitty hard.
Alamak, when am I going to moved niiiiiiiiii....ughhhhhh....
Did you know that I have very long crush on every guy that I like?
8 months la...1 year plus la...teda-teda bah aku ni, I don't know why I stay that long?

Today I had NY Fish & Chips, Warisan oh bestnyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..Slurrrrpppppppppp...
Anddddddd the purple Guess is still there...so 389 x 40%= 233.40
I want, I want. I always want!!!

5 more days to KL and household's latest edition.
I hope no delay for the new baby. We need one, we need one.
Will add another one after my license.

I lost my appetite. Die loh. So not me to have little appetite.
I'm a bit worried tho, hmmmmmm :(

Brought back some work,
that'll be my entertainment for tomorrow.

Happy Saturday.
I can't wait for whats mine!

XX Ren headache + sleepy XX

Yawn.

2009-07-14T21:46:00.003+08:00

So sleepy, slept @3am.
I always have this stupid problem, unable to sleep due to head cramp or shoulder cramp.
I hope I sleep peacefully tonight.

I had the best annual leave yesterday. Havents seen my old street since forever.
Jalan sini jalan sana, went to The Salon for my trim. Got the cutest comment from the stylist "lembut rambut kau macam baby" O.M.G, Nevermind, let me claim that as a compliment. Hair is a lot lighter than before which is superb. Since I'm on leave again this Friday, aku mau kaler la pulak rambut aku. Heh, last-last botak HAHAHAHHAAHHA mom always say that every time I fuss about my hair, chillex ma, mahal tu rambut aku.

WHAT ELSE?
The household is still waiting for our new addition.
I DON'T KNOW if everything will go as planned, I HOPE SO.
(Important note : The best financial borrower is still MY place. Most of the others require itulah, inilah, check darah la (ok kidding). Thats why right, for all the borrowings that can't be done in other places, sure approved at mine.) So come to my place. Then you can see me in my ridiculous run here run there action.

I can become a first class P.A.
I think I'm good at that.
Let me work something up. ^___^

Here's something weird, my horoscope tells;

You may still be a bit irritated about yesterday's events, but it really is time just to let go and forget it. Besides, if a certain person you're quite fond of has anything at all to say about it, the type of secrets and intrigue you'll be dealing with will be far from unpleasant. Dim lights, soft music and sweet whispers -- that sort of thing just might be what they have planned. There. Better?

ZZZ time. Night!

XX Ren is out to discover The Real Truth XX

I think I MIGHT be a Kermit, what are you?

2009-07-12T12:23:00.002+08:00

Today the bank group is having some sort of staff activity in the golf club.
Guess who is missing? The kermit, thats who.
I so DRAG socializing. EEEEE bencinya. Thats why I'm always missing in every office social events or mates social events of whatever social events, Ish bencinya saya meeting people.
SUPRISINGLY I'm friends with mostly outgoing chicks, I guess they have some mercy on me, thats how we all end up friends. Looking back right, I hated KO KURIKULUM in school, nasib la The Choir belongs to a close friend so aku pun masuk-masuk ja la, asal ada kan orang cakap. And we don't want to begin with sports activities UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH nda boleh, nda boleh.

You are how you were during school. Trust me.
Confirm la ni boss bising2 onTuesday or they might reschedule me to another weekend EEEEE sorilah aku mau datang. Once a kermit, always a kermit. And I'm dang comfortable in my coconut shell, its so safe inside here. The only thing that has change about me is I love handbags and I look after my office wear. THATS ALL. And I care about my hair. Wow, revamp kermit KEKE. And I can (still) make cheeky jokes about everything.

Oh ya last week, some silly guy commented on my eyes;

"Kau tiada tidur ka mlm tadi? Mata ko tu bah..."
(I don't understand, not CLEAR enough, but I think its bcause of the mascara, need to re-check, anyway, gila punya lelaki! Ada ka komen2 gitu~Ish)

I don't get it how most online quizzez always tell me that I'm shy? (Am I???)
No la bah kan? I mean I can't be. Its a crazy mid20s world here. Deal with it.

Its rainy season here in Borneo, and tu angin punyalah kuat, I nearly got flown away to Johor the other day hehe, merely stating my point.

The household is planning to get a new car.
For all the times aku ejek2 orang datang sign agreement, here comes MY time.
Ada mercedez murah ka? HAHAHAHA kidding.
So here goes my conquest looking for THE BEST deal for the household.
I hope we end up with a bigger car. I hope lah.

Do you know that there's soooooooo many nuggets brands in the market?
Like, takkan la I eat EVERY brand to know which is the best kan?
Note: To follow mom for groceries shopping.

Enough nonsense for Sunday.
I'll be back for more laterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

So much love from Kermit to you.

XX Ren wants ...a lot for a car XX

Weekends come & go.

2009-07-04T12:42:00.002+08:00

Once again its the week-end. Oh such routines, I'm already used to boredom.
Was planning to get a least 2 dVds for my time but shops being raid by the authority, I'm left with my stale books and magoz. Ugh.

Besties out of town, I'm saving more RM for my trip so can't go out anyway.
Saw a nice purple bag @Guess, nearly rm500, oh shiet, would buy it if I'm on my PMS or whatever but I don't think its worth it, the sling is too fragile, but the colour is perfect and the brand is wow. They have luggage bags also but so puke-y and everything is, of course, rm500 and above. I need a bigger bag for KL ugh, di mana boleh ku dapat kannya oh di mana, Surveyed every-cp-and-warisan-where but I don't think its the season yet.
Roxy is too beach-y, I'd look weird.
I'll try harder next week. Can't wait for my trim, do I have enought courage too? Yes I do.
I wonder how I carried the heaviness LAST time, hmmm, I never cared last time.

Certain 20 something people have rm800k in their savings, such MF, don't think I need that much, 200k would do tho'. Certain youngsters also have rm61k in their EFP. Monsters.

I hate the heavy sun shine after 8am.
I still love the walk to The O. I need to try the new route. Malasnya.

Can be bothered with checking my savings anymore. My a/c is a mess already.
I hate.

Love, Love.

XX Ren hopes you have sunnier weekend. Ciao XX

I got served.

2009-07-02T23:55:00.003+08:00

Am very happy today because had Japanese for lunch wuhuuuuu life is almost great.
I normally go for ikan-ikan di sana, no beefs or chickens. And today had the Salmon bento yang memang sangat sedap and bikin kenyang. My officer was like "wahhh habis ko makan tu nasi" hahahaha Ya boss, sedap tu (dan saya lapar!!!)

SECONDLY, Boss said he received good feedbacks about me (from clients) HAHAHHAAHHAHAHAH, Life is almost great.
He said this in front of the whole office during our 2 months-once meeting.
It brought back happiness to me as I had a tiny lash with another dept. manager in the morning. (Sorry maam, I guess The Boss knows who's doing the work accordingly.)
Most of the mates said nothing, ya la kan, its not like I expect them to bow to me or anything, a few senior members said wow and all tapi takkan puji saja boss? Kasi la sikit-sikit increment or whatever. Kidding, this is fine. I'm thankful.

During my free days like now, I always wake up late. Punyalah tiada harapan, I even thought of taking emergency leave because mau sambung tidur. But boss sang his praises right jadi HAVE TO rajin sikit lah.

I have more to blog, tapi macam hungry again, (MF!!!)
Mi Sedaap, here I come.

GN!

XX Ren is saving for KL XX

The 7th month.

2009-07-01T22:41:00.003+08:00

I always get nombor 7 during my primary school years. Malar 7.
Cubalah once in a while dapat no. 1, (yeah once, primary 2, 1st semester)
Lepas tu aku lupa diri and I'm back to square 7.
Secondary years nda payah tanya, TIADA NOMBOR hahahahahaha
Thank god school years's over, I miss a lot of my friends tho.
Apa kamu buat sekaranggggg, siapa dapat billionaire? HUH? Tiada? Hmm..samalah HAHAHA!
Anyway, its July already. (Kenapalah kalau September, but hey just stating the facts okkkk)

I would like to report that sales starting to go down, am not busy anymore.
Can leave The O at 5.30, oh what a wonderful world.

Guess who's flying solo this month?
Huhu, this will be my 1st trip ALONE kakakakkaka and I'm 24 already, yang pergi dengan officemate tu nda kira la kan? Ish I'm a little nervous, should I talk to strangers? Ada penjahat ka tu dalam plane? Gosh...but anyho, VERY EXCITEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.
Hope I can jalan-jalan more but I'm thinking of settling things in kampung first.
Ceh, but you know what I mean right? It will be a short trip, hope I'll have a blast anyway.

I always buy the wrong shade of lipstick. Even mom does it better.
I'm very bad with lightings maybe. I think ada 3,4 ampai-ampai nda kena pakai.
I always end up with colour yang tiada colour. Gosh, need to try samapai puas la niii.
And I bought a new mascara. It made my day okkkk.

I need to trim (and colour) my hair before KL.
2nd thought, I trim first lah. Bloody heaVy.

Good nite.
I hope I have sushi again this Friday.

XX Ren is still waiting..any more refunds for me? KEKEKEKE XX

Makanan Sedap.

2009-06-28T12:02:00.004+08:00

Cutesy.

2009-06-25T20:16:00.003+08:00

I look up to Cameron & Drew.
1)Gorgeous.
2)They have the single-coolness style.
2)They have so much fun.
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Ala comelnya this latest blog template. Macam mau cubit-cubit ja...
Awwww..checkout my FB yang ada nama Dania tu, oh her baby punya cute mata besar pun I want to cubit..(Jehan, stay away from commenting about this, "kita sudah bincang")

I'm still not over my nearly 1K drama.
Takut aku mau withdraw duit, I went paranoid justnow..ok ka ni, ok ka tidak?
Last last took a little RM ja for mum, I need to re-study ok ka nda perkara ni?
Asked 2 of my officers, diaorang OK saja,

"Boleh beli 2 beg Guess tu Rena"
"Aiyah, take only la, go shopping, kalau saya kena credit RM, saya lari ohhh..kenapalah orang cari-cari saya" Hahahahahhaha sot kamu, but honestly mesti you go mad like me too, I mean who in this money- called- world mau kasi kau duit senang2...tell me who?!
Aku kena tunggu OT masuk la macam ni, baru aku lega sikit.

Stopped OT for 2 days already. Yes, ini tanda yang baik.
But boss havent agree with my July leaves hahahahha, dia worry tu tiada orang attend customer for signing hhahahahahha lucu, lucu. Lek kau boss, boleh ni. I hope the forms will be on my table tomorrow morning, kalau nda macam mana lah niiiiii ahhh aku mau cutiiii!
See I told your rightttttttt you will get what you want. You will. Sini ada living proof okkkkk.

I hate divorces.
Macam manalah Jon and Kate (Plus 8) tu mau jaga anak?
I mean, they can barely jaga when it was with the two of them.
Now mau jaga solo-solo, confirm la nda terjaga.
Yes, I hate divorces.
But sometimes if its for the better, then have to la kan?
-Still hate divorces-

Psycho b*itch gave me a call tadi to ask for her a/c details. I don't even know macam mana penjahat begitu boleh ada BF, must be no dick punya type yang ikut saja apa perempuan cakap, like really bro, ko mau saya ajar ka? This is too harsh I should delete this when I'm cooler, in fact I should delete a lot of negativity in this blog tapi saya cakap betul maaaa, its not like I make up stories kan?
So anyway, b*tch STILL trying to seek for excuses not to pay,
YA ALLAH YA TUHANKU (I'm saying this sepenuh keikhlasan hati).
Honestly, how b.a.d can a person be? I'm not saying that I'm good, coz saya biasa saja but really, there are straight forward general guidelines applied in life you know?
Aiyohhhhh kalau SAYA jadi mum ko, saya kasi masuk ko balik dlm perut ohhhh..ishhhhhhhhh. Such failure.
(Ya ya bla bla nda boleh cakap orang mcm tu tapi dia j.a.h.a.t ok? Circumstances would understand.) She wanted my mobile no for further enquires, punyalah. I got everything plan out, just incase my no. terlepas to her, I'll just get the guards downstairs to speak to her in their accent HAHAHAHAHAHHA baru ko tak tau. But bro is very good with immitation suara, dude he always scare my mum on the fon.

I have ulcer on my lower lip. Thank gawd for Bonjela kan.
I hope it gets better tomorrow/weekend. I havent pay back my puasa-puasa yang tertinggal and its nearly a month before Ramdh. Ahhhhhhhhh lemas la aku ni,
Mum said I have about 7-8 days? (Macam mana dia lagi tau dari aku niii???)
So, here's to a pre-puasa July.

I need a good massage la, my bone is older than my age.
Asyik penat ja all the time, ish...

I'm looking forward to weekends, bukan ada buat apa-apa pun.
Just to reflex (wtf?)

Take care girls.

XX Ren sakit badannnnnnnnnn XX

Problemo.

2009-06-23T23:00:00.003+08:00

My bank account ada extra RM, nearly 1K.
How about that?
Guess who smiled all the way to the bus terminal this afternoon? Saya lah, siapa lagi.
I need to re-calculate before I sleep.
Saya jarang salah tau, especially pasal RM sendiri, saya peduli apa kalau RM orang, but when it comes to my savings, I actually have everything calculated even before withdrawal or purchase. I need to have the net amount, always in my head.
Perhaps I salah kira right?
I mean siapalah mau credit nearly 1K to my a/c?
Tapi nda mungkin bah because I have everything map out wayyy before...
I don't like laaaaaaaa my a/c kena mess beginiiii....eeeeeeeeeeeeee....
It could be the flight tickets nda kena swap properly, but hello?
I went to KL and safely back to KK already, how can they let me fly begitu saja kalau nda dapat RM? Or maybe we swap first and deduction will be done later?
Nooooo...tidak mungkin, this is RM we are talking about, and I checked the balance (I told you right, I always check,check,check) after the online payment memang sudah kena deduct and the net amount shown that time was the correct one.
Now ada a lot extra, I dunno where it comes from, did anyone refund me my tickets ka? Again, I don't like my a/c kena mess beginiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.

If you take the extra pigi shopping (yes, I know you are thinking about that, don't we all?), they will deduct later because its not your RM. Disturbing, disturbing, disturbing.
I cannot believe I'm going to have to balance my OWN a/c before sleep. Shizzo.

I attended a few married couples and what I truly notice kan..why these couples so bahagia is because the lady pampered her man. Astagah, men can be such babies kan? Although most of the time, the lady talks more but I can soooooooo see how she take cares of her man, like a mother. Jangan marah ya kawan-kawan, kalau mau beli kereta you have to put down nearly 50 signatures, so I have so much time to survey during the signing.

Was so sleepy today, felt like I wanna baring atas typewriter Yawnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.
Need to wake early tomorrow because hair needs shampoo.
Still a bit more files to clear, I wanna take more leaves. I have 16 left.

Let me go and balance my savings ya?
Good nite.

XX Ren misses bestie! XX

Not to care.

2009-06-17T22:32:00.003+08:00

The rules are that,
sampah=everywhere
diamond=selected safe places.

Its so tiring to clean too many rubbish.
Saya sangat penat.
too much everywhere.
BUT its not always there la, but the sometimes is already making me super tired.
Can we have more matured intellectuals around ka? Rubbish is such a waste of (my) time. Punyalah.

Selepas rubbish, saya paling benci show-offs with so called guts.
EEEEE I mean wtf, you only have less than 20k in your account.
off yang begini normally waste my time pok pek pok pek pasal bisnes dia yang kecil tu and waited for my display of wow-ness. Adoi na, ko pi pasar, bayar satu orang, suruh dia puji ko banyak kali. How about that? Settle kan problem? Nda payah waste masa saya.
TAPI kan, ko bayar saya pun saya nda mau ooo HAHHAHAHAHAH stupid.

On a hillarious note, I nearly tripped on my way to the O this morning WAKAKAKAKAKA punyalah. There were so many kereta mewah on the road, kalau la aku jatuh mesti kuyak rabak memalukan OMG. I keep on looking down until sampai O, eeee malu, malu, malu, Jangan la anybody saw me. Tomorrow I'll make sure to walk properly.

Cheers to a better walk tomorrow.

XX Ren enters The Mode House of Palm Square XX

Status.

2009-06-15T23:13:00.005+08:00

It could be my after- holiday- glow plastered all over my face or my decision to put on certain blink blink that made all the confusion.

"Kau cuti hari tu untuk bertunang ka?"
(LOL kakakakakaka tidak, saya ni BF pun belum ada)

"Mesti family choice tu kan? She's the type yang ikut saja apa family arrange"
(Behhhhhhhhhh tidak tidak tidak. Tidak mungkin.)

"But you look different, so really bah, ada sudah ka?"
(Tiada dehhhhhhh. Kalau ada mesti pigi dating macam Bestie hakhakhakhak)

Mesti best kan kalau boleh jawab "YA" but no, not for now.
Mum said, it could be a sign that he's coming my way but I don't believe that kind of sign anymore. Funny lah keadaan ini. FUNNEHHHHHHHH kekekekeke.

Celebrated mums birthday yesterday. Macam biasa, makan pizza (pisha kekekkkekek)
Met more loserish male customer lately. I don't know what happen to them, semua macam kurang manly, macam mau cari gaduh saja (macam perempuan). Ouch?

Am so sleepyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. Niteeee ZzZzZz.

XX Ren ngantukkkkkkkkkkkkk XX

The Return.

2009-06-11T20:32:00.004+08:00

I think I put on a few kgs lah..
aku sudah mencecah 58 kg HAHAHAHAHA matilah ni, how to find the right jeans.
And the few kg bukan pasal food, but too much SLEEP ok. Muka pun kembang ja
kekekekek I think pic above is how i will look like time pregnant. I wore the biggest size punya baju, should have worn a size smaller, the baju kembang habis ok, patutlah tiada lelaki hit on me time tu :(
Thank god kaki masih kecil.
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KL was great.
Johor was great too.
But such a short leave kan? So didn't do much. Only the important.
I love to stay in KL one day. You know ulang alik KL-KK-KL,
(yeah macam airline bapak sya punya KEKE)
See lah, if God wills it I'm planning to have a place in KL.
If I ever kumpul cukup duit, the right place for me to buy in KK is Marina Court. WAHAHAHAHA doesnt hurt to blog rite?
I won't settle my RM for normal housing.
Mesti ambil da bomb right. That is, if I ever kumpul enough RM.
Kalau RM tak cukup2 then pilih the minimum saja lah..Hmmmm...

Sis brought me to Pavilion.
Babi.
Punya mega highclass like its only rich people's business.
I didn't know kita ada Gucci di Malaysia. And Prada. And other coutures.
And apa tu, Salvatore Feragamo?
I wonder siapa bah yang beli all the shits there? Mesti big shots and hot shots kan.
And don't give me that "siapa-siapa saja yang ada duit" crap.
Mana ada orang normal pigi shopping sana.
I don't really like that place but SANGAT wow factor ok.
Would love to hold a Prada or Gucci bag next time KEKE, mesti kena jeling the shopkeeper.

Berjaya Times Sq best juga lah. But you know, after 1B's arrival I don't really look up KL for shoppings. MPH midvalley never dissapoint me. I got the one book that I've been looking every-online-where for my collection from my favourite author. I'd tell you next time who she is. My biggest,biggest fairytale queen. All her story cheers me up. Itulah aku blog panjang2 ni sebab aku happy dapat tu buku HEHE. Did I tell you that I lurveeeeee Leighton Meester from Gossip girl? Dia sangat pretty, I love her so much. I got the latest US Cosmopolitan in Mvalley too with Leighton on the cover, June 09. Punya lama aku tunggu dapat juga akhirnya. And I don't (have time) to watch GG. Aku admire her beauty ja hehe. I wanted to get a very-very kalerful Swatch tapi I'll probably wait for my next visit.

Lain-lain biasa saja, wish I can stay there LAMAAAAAA sikit, but siapa mau buat agreement HEHE. Do you know that in KL, the lorries yang carry pasir and all the pembinaan shits cannot masuk KL during office hours to avoid gangguan traffic. Hilarious. So I asked my sis, the lorries pakai which way if they need to operate? Dia jawab "pakai jalan kampung" HAHAHAHAHHAH I dunno, it doesnt make sense bah, hahahahahhaha gila eh.

Back at The O, everything is under control. Tiada kematian kerana banyak kerja.
But I heard a few officers pok pek pok pek banyak kerja because I wasnt around.
Boss rotate our functions again. I no longer do the approval letters, only attend customers for signing and the old job, complete agreements. One officer got that approval position so bermulalah episod sibuk dia, I've been there. Kesian juga kan? Macam tidak balance bah the office because of eco crisis. Am glad Boss took one function away, boleh lah aku kembali kepada my 11.30am slot and 1 hour lunch.
(Sekali dia kasi balik aku mati lah aku dui palis,palis)

I think I better finish my books.
TTYL.

XX Ren sayang her books XX

EMO-w= Emow.

2009-06-04T22:02:00.006+08:00

I can take a lot of let downs.
Maybe because I started very early in my life learning to receive it.
Terima saja everything. It sort of ruins my soul. Big confession right? But true.
Ah penatnya aku terima all this let downs.
I have diagnosis myself, and I have fallen into this category:
Menopause at 24.
Shizzo. Adoi.
I'm going through this bloody phase- not interested in EVERYTHING
except for my friends, shopping baju, shopping BAGS,
(I'm not even impress with Kereta Mewah ka, Kereta Terpakai ka, Kereta Teda Atap ka, kalau ko cakap ko ada 100m di bank pun sya teda feeling oh, saya sangat penat dengar cerita yang irrelevant sama sya. Terus kalau ko marah2 pun saya nda dapat telly dengan ko because did you read earlier? SAYA TIDAK PEDULI BAH, I am soul-less. Faham?) Itu sahaja.

Yang lain-lain I cannot care you know. I just can't. I need to decorate my soul.
Nasib ada blog kan? Lepas juga all The Craps.

(OK now everything macam coming back to my head and I want to laugh.
Bodoh oh aku pi blog pasal ni HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH)

XX Ren: Aiyoh, this post kena delete ni later, MEMALUKAN XX

Mid year enters.

2009-06-01T22:38:00.003+08:00

There are times that I get realliiiiiiiii confused with my choices and what I really want.
Betul ka aku mau tu semua? Or aku ikut-ikut orang?

The Love is gone.
Fine with me.
Maybe because I havent seen much, so I dunno how to judge or see,
BUT
Love like that is tiring.
Not fun tiring like it suppose to be.
Dead tiring ok.
Dan saya tidak perlu penat yang begitu or rather that kind of Love.
I'm blessed that I had the chance to go thru that period of Love,
Know what?
Punya jauh beza with The Fairytales that I build in my mind for so long.
Maybe fairytales are for fairies only. Ordinaries will not get the beautiful tales.
'll let you know once I'm done with my usaha.
So la,la,la..here's me welcoming a better Love.

LA LA LA... Can't wait for my KL trip. Sis promised to bring us jalan the afternoon we arrived. Starting from now, we'll be staying at Sis place every KL trip.
Arwah gone for 4 months already. Time flies...

Work is too much for me.
I hope next year ada changes or maybe I'm the one opting for change HAHAHA
Entahlah, wait till that time lah. Share with you then.

P/S: Most of the time I'm sad because kerja belum siap or not enough time to do everything at work. Saya jarang sedih pasal benda2 lain dalam hidup saya.

XX Ren is not looking, she's taking work as her partner XX

B.o.y.s

2009-05-30T21:09:00.005+08:00

If I were a boy even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted
And go drink beer with the guys

And chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted
And I'd never get confronted for it
'Cause they stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken
So they'd think that I was sleeping alone

I'd put myself first
And make the rules as I go
'Cause I know that she'd be faithful
Waiting for me to come home, to come home

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

Its a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake
Think I'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you're just a boy
You don't understand
And you don't understand, oh
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you wish you were a better man

You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
'Cause you're taking her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy

Arghhhhhhhh!!!!

2009-05-26T22:54:00.002+08:00

Alamak bos, its my first encounter, first meeting and first experince with a psycho biat-ch.
O M G.
Ya Allah,
this must be my payback on earth for all my sins.
Bencinya. Punya gila ni perempuan. Gawd, when I meet orang macam ni I wish dia kena accident, ya ya I know, not good to curse yada BUT the accident could teach them untuk reflect all their sins yang menyakitkan orang lain, big time. I bet this isnt the last time, mesti lepas ni call balik2 to avoid her monthly payment. See, aku tau bah all the psycho moves. The Govt should do something untuk penjahat macam ni like maybe, a black i/c, something like a silent signal to the others; "Ni Orang Gila" hahahahahhahaha.

God,
Jauhkan lah orang gila dari hidup aku.
AAAAAAAAA eeeeeeee nda mauuuuu orang gila!

Oh ya, in The O pun banyak orang gila.
Work can make you crazy. Beware.

I wanna shop more.
I want RM more.
I tamak haha, I know.

XX Ren hates craziness XX

Life.

2009-05-24T00:14:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I think some people live a much better life than the others.
Some people have and get everything easily, while others put effort setengah mati to gain better. And I look, and I think, and I look again;

Nooo...my life is good.
Nda mau lah swap places with anybody.
Who knows what they are suffering inside.

But I want to travel.
(Where is this coming from?)
Orang punya pictures in FB/FS.
Its always like that la kan? U see gold far far away, yang depat mata ko nda nampak.
Issit like that with love? NO no Saturday night jangan cerita pasal love.
Lets ride the night keke. (Konon)
Its been so long since my snooping on Sat Nite.
I used to peep all the kereta mewah lining up on the street, can be a massive line I tell you.
Not my scene lah all that, awesome to look at tho'.

Going back to The O tomorrow morning.
Test new pc ok or not.
My list is up. Yeay, cant wait 2 shop! Finally kan?!

TTYA

XX Ren smiles XX

Spread love!

2009-05-22T21:51:00.003+08:00

So.
Remember my leave application? for 3 days?
Boss cakap ok.
Approved.

WUHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
I will be in Malaysia yang sebelah sana on the 6th. Back ke sini on the 10th.
TQ boss. I heard a few officers going "hahhhh..dia cutiii? siapa mau buat kerja?" HEHEHE. buatlah sendiri, saya mau fly kekekekeke.
But honestly right, macam almost everyone went blank ni when aku kasitau. Know why? Because, matilah nanti semua kerja BERSUB-SUB hahahahaha.
Welcome to overtime life people! Welcome, welcome. Spread the loVe.

Gaji is in. Havent list down what I want.
Macam dari last week belum buat list lagi.
This is workaholic blogging.

What is the latest thing in my HATE list. -Orang cakap pusing-pusing. Fucker.
It doesnt matter which way you cross ok, because you are still wrong and U FUCKING waste other people punya time. Gosh, saya benci kau.

You know ada this one guy (who must really have wanted The Kereta Mewah), he failed to provide his original income evidence, and I feel so kesian la sama dia. Macam I want to sit next to him and tell him its ok, everything will be ok. (What shit is this?) But u get me right. ISH, ISH. (The point here: Dont lie kehkehkehkeh)

Had Big N Tasty for 2 lunches already. Oh tidakkkkk...meat is bad (and yummy)
Go try the latest Pizza (pisha ahahahahhahaha) yg ada tempura tu, yum yum yum...

Maybe because I'm over it or what-eva, but I don't easily pissed if people ask me The Question anymore. Its cool, sama juga bah, my time is later.
No problem. (Anyway I got ask again TODAY. 2x. Cis. Again, its cool.)

Guy: Suami kerja around sini juga?
(He wants to know aku single ka nda, wow, aku nda pernah jumpa yg style macam ni)

Ren: Looked at guy and...Ya HAHAHAHHAHAHAH. (yes, big laugh)

Guy: ......

(kehkehkehkeh...nah tulah ko, sebarang ja menggetek, kan dah kena dari aku.)

Ok, off to do my list. I need another round of pizza (pisha hahahahha) tempura!
Spread love okkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk. MWAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

XX Ren misses blogging and misses Y.o.u XX

Just Dance. Gonna Be Ok.

2009-05-17T20:02:00.003+08:00

I'm waiting for my KFC to arrive from Karamunsing.
I need my 2nd dinner.

Somebody is in a -confirmed- lovey dovey situation.
No. not me.
But my girl. (girls?)
Coz more than one falls in this situation.
So perempuan-perempuan semua, you know who you are right?!
I feel like saying something exotic in Spanish. Tapi nda pandai. So here is the most simple;
ENNNNNNNNNNNNNNJJJJJJJJJJJJJOOOOOOOOOOYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!
Its such a shocking "bam" feeling kan this kind of falling?
I fell somewhere in November 07.
Have yet to consider my route...
But as far as I can recall, I was smiley all the way okkkkk....
Even this one guy working in a boat shop pun cakap "Yaaaa..senyummmmm"
(This post is blogged on behalf of ehem, nda bulih sebut nama KEKE)

A very big congrats to another friend.
I'll stand by you! Update me k?

Its salary week and I already know what I want.
A white bag. @Roxy.
I shall see, I shall see.
Lama nda beli makeup, shall get that as well.

What I love about FB and FS?
The pics la apa lagi. KEKEKE

XX Ren is happy for you! XX

The way.

2009-05-14T21:52:00.002+08:00

I like to wait. I have so much time and tolerant to wait.
(So yeah bestie, betul lah tu apa ko cakap. I WAIT for miracle to come to me. I do nothing. I wait and hope for it to come my way.)
Honestly because aku nda mau paksa orang bah.
Macam nda best ni main paksa.
want it go naturally (smoothly).
I mean who knows the miracle line tengah traffic jam because too many people asking.

All this is crazy ramblings, I know.

Even the people in 90s dont do this kind of waiting.
I'm in the wrong line.
Bah mati la nie.

XX Ren pening XX

Small Heart.

2009-05-13T23:46:00.002+08:00

1) Happened a week ago.
My mates yang ngok loudly talk about nda tahan bau orang. They were commenting on segala bau yang they have to tahan everyday. And I was attending seorang army man sign. Punyalah Mf the situation. So there I was marking the parts he needs to sign and then ni bongoks cakap LOUDLY about that. Punya malu aku, you know la I always have to cover orang punya salah. So this army man said, kalau orang dengar mesti marah. (I was trying my best untuk tahan malu and buat2 nda dengar) Last2 aku pigi sound tu dua orang hush hush because army man dengar sudah apa kamu cakap. Aiyohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Me and the two ngoks did not discuss this further TAPI was really uncomfortable with THE situation. Macam mana aku pun boleh terlibat sekali!!!

2) I'm still trying to figure out KENAPA orang selalu marah-marah.
Why? Not getting any at home? What is the need to marah orang lain?
HOWEVER, hehehe...kalau stress pasal kerja tu aku faham lah.
Because I can be one of the them yang sikit2 marah kalau workload macam taik.
Now, I ain't a racist tapi yang selalu marah2 ni mesti that race yang bawah Yahudi tu hahahaha Pity, pity. Pityyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

3) What is scary in my list this May?
Man with tiny thin eyebrows. Bitch-y!

4) Boss will only talk to me about my 3 days leave next Monday.
"Talk to me on Monday ok?"
And then he jalan balik...EEEEEEEEEEE.
Monday it is. Wish me luck.

5) "Kenapa loan saya belum ada approval?"
Honest answer: Ntah. Saya bukan manager HAHAHAHHAHAH
How I will always answer: Oh, banyak files queue tuu..kamu tunggu sekejap ya. Nanti ada result the salesrep will call you.

6) Sometimes kan people can be so blunt.
"Gaji tinggi macam saya tidak payah pakai penjamin kan?"
Hahahahahahhaha adoiiiii ya bah boss, memang dari awal kami tau ko ada lombong emas.
I mean it is something to be proud of or happy about if you have so much RM tapi agak-agak la sikit cara declare tu astagahhhhhhhhh!

7) If you have TOO much enquiries or doubts then maybe you are not ready for it.

8) Its not-ok to punish people because you have less.
Yang buruk itu dari diri sendiri.

9) After my burger petang, I went window around CPS and found out that sangat banyak abang2 hensem around. With office attire. Wah.
And maybe every situation is a blessing. So stay thankful always.

10) Its nearly mid of the year.
I'm wondering how close I am to The Answer?

XX Ren selalu tidak cukup ZzZz xx

This Date.

2009-05-10T20:41:00.003+08:00

Mothers day punya date tukar ka every year?
Biasanya like belas belas punya date kan?
Anyhow, Happy Mothers Day to all mothers out there.
Mothers give up so many things to make her children happy/puas.
Dads are more like protectors. Ini nda boleh, itu nda boleh.

Today is also my driver's birthday.
Ehem, I mean my bro. Happy 2.7 to him.
Hope you turn rich and hand me some RM for my bags ok?
Much love, Sue.

I just notice this afternoon that tu cat hotel sebelah 1B hypermall adalah sangat2 bidak!
Like omg, I don't know wether kerja2 pembinaan masih berjalan or whatever but mannnnn, punya nda rata tu cat, so wrong ok! No wonder a mate of mine commented on this masa 1B baru buka but now bukan sudah months ago ka tu.
What is f wrong with this people nda cat betul2? You are wondering why aku sibuk betul ni? Sebab bidak la bah, duh!

1B was alright, very calm today.
Was expecting orang sibuk celebrate M day tapi macam tedaaaa pun...
I met a few familiar faces there.
(Oh itu pulak BF dia kekeke, malu2 lagi bah!)
Also met orang2 from school and they looked at me, ala u know the "i know her from school' look, wish I had the guts to say Hi tapi nda payahlah, bukan friends pun dulu.
Was so thankful with the airconditioner in 1B, punya panas tu outside, was sweating like waterfall before entering.

OK . Here's something meaningful for this blog.

............................

(aku delete, sounds tacky, nanti orang can't relate and accuse me memandai2, I hope there will be other times to share that.)

Tu la pasal terlampau ZzZzZ,
I forgot MOST of my blogging points.
Ish, ish. I will come back for more stories ok?

T.C
T.T.Y.L
I.L.U
F.U hahahahahahahhaha kidding bah jo.

XX Ren wants you to Guess what she bought in 1B? XX

Hush.

2009-05-06T22:19:00.004+08:00

Emily Blunt, Devil Wears Prada.
Her hair colour is hot lah...
I am thinking...

*** *** *** *** *** *** *** *** *** *** ***

I have nothing much to share.
I guess everything is ok, under control.
I'm starting to accept orang punya kejahatan,
Hey you know what?
Cool with me, mana-mana ko sajalah, bukan anak saya yang tidak cute nanti hahhahaha
yes, it is known among the very close ones to me (ie; bro & bestie) that I can be M.E.A.N.
Tapi most of the time saya adalah yang macam kamu nampak lah, ok ok saja kekekeke.

I feel a little bida being so clear with bestie.
Dia ok ka tu ah? Over lunch macam aku rasa maybe clear isnt always the way.
But I'm here ok? So sedih ka, happy ka, beli Roxy ka, look right up for me.
I.am.here.

I wanna get the Guess lah I think.
Hmmmm...see, kan betul what I believe all the while,
You will get what you want. Tapi lama ka sekejap, itu take care sendiri lah.
(**Unless its decided BAD for you then I think you won't get it la kekeke, HE knows better)

Any cute customers? Noooooooooo...
But lately a lot nice ones kekeke (diaorang blogging kali tu kan hahahaha)
Mates in the O always rush home. Aku pun nda tau what they hate so much in the O.
Its like a serious run-away contest ni...5:30 lariiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii hahahahhaha.
Maybe macam tu lah kan people with family, macam saya ni ehem, boleh duduk2 and check out Palm Sq dulu keke.

Working closer to the boss made me wake up right on time.
Sampai O pun awal.
Macam tu lah kalau banyak kerja, kalau tidak banyak, 7.++ am baru bangun HEHE
(Be thankful always)

Its still hot in the morning.

Wish me luck with my Guess plan!

XX Ren starts Answering XX

Hi May.

2009-04-30T00:11:00.002+08:00

I swear fish & co has the best mayo okay.
I think they might spike it to make it super delicious.
Tapi teda pula aku pening2 lepas tu, lagi semangat mau kerja adalah kekeke.
I heart fish & co. Heart, heart, heart.
(To my future; Honestly kan, some people might register me as fast food eating only/ no rice kinda girl but actually saya makan semua yang ha-lam-alif-lam ok? Kalau ko mau bawa sya pi port view tengahari buta pun boleh hahahaha nda bah, saya cool ja dengan apa-apa k?)
Double cheese is back to RM9.80 shizzo, the RM6.25 choices kena limit sudah.
Yeah, yeah. Business right?!
Was a little upset because the cakes from SR macam "masam" sikit.
And I bought four.
It doesnt taste gross lah, tapi nda sedap macam biasa.
EEE...upset nya...but bro thought it was the same delicious, and I bought 2 for him, so if he thinks its ok, then cool ja lah.
(COME TO THINK OF IT, memang semua duit saya pigi makanan kan? KEKEKEKE)

Work is same old.
BS are still around.
It is ok to earn less, and to use a "small" car.
Nanti bila ada duit boleh beli Heli ok?
I do not get this whole tipu income just to get a so called hightech edition car.
Bagus kalau boleh gigit dan makan. Deh.
And its not my fault or anyone else that you are less qualified.
There is no point mau kasi tinggi2 suara because hun, kalau gaji 1K ianya tidak boleh menjadi 3.5k magically.

So karma being a bitch and all, habis la aku nanti kan? hahahaha wait till I know how to drive and mau beli BMW and the bank says no hahahahhaha *touchwood* then I will rasa apa orang lain rasa to get a car! (Note siring: My last choice was Proton Persona tapi itu 1.6 jadi mau kena fikir wether willing to let go more for petrol or not, Myvi is delicious tapi macam giant bah tu, takut aku...and everybody wants a Harrier, CR-V, Ninja, all the adik beradik Toyota, Mercs and of cozzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz Beemeerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr kehkehkeh) Actually aku mau Honda bah, actually aku mau Heli kekeke -over-

I bought a very very comfy baju from besties place.
YEAY!!!!

Friday is Public holiday yeeehaaaa kekekeke...
This May I think I'll take care of my savings.
I finally faham that you can never buy everything in Warisan or CPS. kekekeke.
Hello again saving!

Hari ni is sooo bad, I waited for the 6th or 7th bus. Full, full, full.
Thank gawd I made it before line merah!
Very-very sleepy. Nite to you!

XX Ren needs The Answer first XX

I say.

2009-04-26T11:53:00.002+08:00

Happy Sunday!!!
XO

This far.

2009-04-25T10:26:00.002+08:00

Have u heard of Herbal Life?
Fuh, I think most of the perempuan in my office is consuming this.
I think one of the agent (also O friend) said satu set is RM3++ but now sudah naik harga to RM4++ but she can give me the old price if I want.

BEH.
You know me, tidak ke doktor. Tidak juga mencuba perkara-perkara yang menakutkan.
But the testimonial is all good lah. If u drink that and TIDAK makan, boleh jadi slim.
If u drink it AND makan, then jadi belon. Told ya right, dunia ni ada RM semua boleh.
(No bestie, we cannot go to Roxy and purchase a guy, itu belum boleh lagi.)

Is work ok? (Work lagi)
Ok. tiada problem.

Kemas bilik, kemas baju.
XO.

XX Ren doesnt take stress anymore XX

Time.

2009-04-22T21:22:00.003+08:00

It used to be my job to jolt down messages for people in the O.

...

..

.

Things
do
change.

XX Ren ...it could have been nothing...hmm XX

Along the way...

2009-04-21T22:46:00.003+08:00

1) In my workplace right, ada ni spesies who would only converse about themselves. For example when you try to bring up a topic, 2-3 mins later they overtake you with their story, experince and totally them. And they hate it when other people become interesting because hey, its their world right? In my book, orang-orang macam ni masuk the rolleyes category because we have had enough, you are you, not La-lohan.

2) What is it with this gastric crap balik2 muncul?
Issit because I eat too much carbs? Jadi doesnt suit my stomach so keluar gastric? Ishhhhhhh...makes me moody. Nda suka.

3) People can go as far as you think for money.
Asking for less payment, less ini, less itu, less keluar duit, nda payah bayar.
Begini ah sya explain, say you are buying kereta worth 500 to 600 a month, please set it in your head that you cannot expect, in miracle, the monthly to go as low as you like.
We already calculate everything for you, you can argue and we can re-calculate for you TETAPI for you to hope for the lowest base on your calculation, well....maybe you can try the bus?

4) We should always put our kesenangan up front.
We all have lives okay. Be responsible to it.
To see certain people with no responsibility is such a curse.
What were they in kehidupan lalu?
What were you?

5) I have adjusted to my new routine.
Tiada rasa mau mati or anything. Good, good.

6) Some deep shizzo.
Why we don't go for benda-benda yang dont suit us is because we don't want to suffer later.

7) My realistic thinking is going to take a murder on me. BYE BYE kekeke

8) "Are you getting married tak lama lagi?" (Dad, yesterday)
Nonononono. No no not yet. Belum settle boss, nanti dulu.
(I'm really that age already, grrrrrrrrrrrrrr, scareh!)

9) If you liked it, you should get it.
Reason : Because you liked.

10) Be thankful.

XX Ren is ready for Apr investment!!! XX

2009-04-19T10:51:00.002+08:00

XOXO

Where's your man?

2009-04-19T10:20:00.002+08:00

MY answers.

But you're hot, why no one approach you?
* Because I can't welcome them yet.
I have unresolved business. I'm keen on finishing these UB first.

But boys keep on calling you almost everyday, text you and all that? He's not your bf?
*Not me. Boys havent contacted me in "that" way.
I don't even give out my num. GoOoO figure.

Maybe you are not giving him a chance?
*And I havent been giving out chances for SO long hun.
Not ready ok, not ready.

Maybe you put high standard in choosing one and/or you are too choosy?
*Maybe I am.

But you are very flirty & men likes you.
*Nah, I ni maintain cute. So I go cute on everybody.
Men likes me? They like my hair kekekekekkekek :p

How would I know if you like me? You don't call/text me ten times a day like women do, I don't get that special attention from you. Does it mean that you are not that into me?
*That means I don't like you in that "love" way.
Coz if I do, I'd be texting you 15 times a day or I'd think abt you like mad hahahahahha
(Yes, I'm like that if I like you the "love" way, but it ain't scary ok? Chill!)

I get mixed signal from you. Your body language suggested that you are into me. So do you like me?
*Hahahahahaha I used to give out confusing signals, tapi now that I'm clear,
I don' t signal anymore kekekeke AND dahling, you WOULD totally know if I like you.

But you have sexy voice when you are talking to me.
* I'm cute with everyone.

I hope I see him when I'm ready/ when its the right time. God knows better!

XX Ren is ready for Monday, and ehem, salaryyyyyyy week XX

Tidak Tau.

2009-04-17T22:54:00.003+08:00

I don't even know why I take too much care about certain things.

Work.
Work.
Work.

Hari ni baru la I realise that I don't give a damn about MY needs.
Semua demi kerja.
WTF, bikin panas.

At least bestie knows her stuff walaupun dia mati2 live untuk orang lain.

Something is wrong here.
Ren, its May for time's sake, fix things ok?

Hari ni saja read loans for nearly 10 customer.
Cari file, verified docs, witness signing aduiiii nasib tiada soalan bonus IF ada confirm aku tidur atas meja tu. And intercom every minute buzzing macam PKM ni.
Belum lagi masuk kena dengar craps from people. Cissssssss!!!

I need to restructure my mind. I need to.

Nite.

XX Ren hopes the pill helps XX

From MY book.

2009-04-16T22:35:00.002+08:00

Hello readers (trippin sesaat, jangan marah).

Because he is a low life scumbag yang minta his daughter kena treat the same way he treated you. Wait for her time.

"When you have time, you tolong buat yang itu lah okay"
"Kau kena tolong saya buat yang ini, saya tidak boleh buat terlampau banyak kerja"
Intercom bunyi and then "What time courier service last pick up today?"

O.M.G
What? kamu ingat saya bangun pagi, naik bas pigi sini just to suka-suka buat charity ka?
OF COURSE I don't blame my mates 100% lah, I mean I provided the picture that I'm willing to help and I CAN help.

"Buat baik berpada-pada"
Ren, remember THAT.

Yes yes yes, my evening window shopping @ Guess today has made me meet MY target over there. Baby, I'm coming soon. And I think I need that Roxy purse, kekeke, blame bestie.

"Itu loan yang sudah approve bah, KAU TAU KA YANG MANA SATU?"

Me : Tau.

(Then suddenly no rude tones, semuanya sweet and soft. Itulah kamu nda tau, sya pemegang status-quo di warisan square. Sya TAU bah okkkkkkkkkk!)

Have you check your status? (quo)
U have to jo. Drop by @Bilqis CP every lunch or after office hour. We'll let u know.

What I cannot tahan?
Kelakuan-kelakuan "romantik" terhadap diri saya.
EEEE you know that tone yang soooooooooooooo sentimental and konon2 renungan ayu eeeee don't do that to me. Demam aku nanti. (Unless I'm into him la hehe, itu aku mau saja keke)
2 days ago, I met this satu dealer yang jarang support our business tapi aku ingat la muka hamster dia, so was being nice and all, said hi bla bla lepas tu dia macam membubut, u know what i mean? Macam psycho pulak kan. Ish and I think on my way to the bus stop dia pun lalu the same way and like try to pull over to sambung cerita (WTF!!!!!) and knowing me, si kaki panjang keke mana ko bulih kejar hahahahahha belum lagi aku pecut 100m tu, gastric bah ko kejar sya hahahhahah Seriously I've figured it out, saya tidak akan malu teriak "penjahattttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt" "jangannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn"
or pecut 100m hahahahhahahah.

I feel like macam mau kasi kuning rambut.
(?)
Kuning doesnt mean yang blonde putih tu okkkk.
Kuning means yang warna honey or brown.
But the trend now is reddish yang nampak tidak nampak punya style.
SO....I'll let you know.

I live below this perempuan cantik macam Erra. So sometimes we wait for the same bus to and from the office, aku nda tau apa masalah skank ni tapi she has this hatred towards me (and my gorgeous hair hahahahahah). She always signal her friend something ni if I'm around.
Punya lame, punya standard 5 tu. PU-NYA-LAHHHHHHH!

It sucks so much to learn a shocking condition about a mate or a friend or a fam member.
How do you face The unpredicted?

Honest : I am a little jauh from Him. Need to get back on HIS line.

XX Ren needs more ZzZz... XX

Day 2.

2009-04-12T15:53:00.004+08:00

P a n a s nya.

Tomorrow, "aircorn" set to the lowest degree.
It has to be.
How else am I going to survive this heat?!!!

XX Ren kipas,ice,kipas,ice XX

Friday, my favourite day.

2009-04-10T22:45:00.004+08:00

I need to learn more about The why's of public holidays in my state and country. Sometimes its always about the cuti; nda payah go to work and NOT knowing why issit a day off. I always love to take leaves on Fri. Most people hate mondays, tapi kalau cuti mondays mesti work kumpul like shit on my desk. Every monday when I come back from leave mestiiiiiiiii ribut my place, I don't know why orang nda boleh put the files nicely, it has to be messy and I need to sort out and understand which is for what/where.

Late thursday talk with a mate:

"Are u dating? The other day u said u have someone already right?" Behhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hahahahahahahh.

"Well, we are getting to know each other, but at the moment he's a friend, we'll see" Kekekekekekekekekeke

NUISANCE huh. I know.
But give it until mid of next month, lepas tu ok lah tu.

Weekend will be boring and plain, yesterday ATM was out of order (no wonder no one there) so didn't but any movies and/or books. Wallet left 10 bucks. Sighhhh....

More stories next week. Ciao.

XX Ren roxy KEKE XX

Smart Girl.

2009-04-07T21:36:00.005+08:00

Yesterday got home and my pinggang downwards so letih like no mercy.
Woke up because one of my kaki super stiff and damn it hurts aduiiiiiii.
Goes to prove that orang2 yang buat typing don't walk much.
Now that I'm attending customer full time bermulalah my walk-for-work life.

So far, new full time duty is okay.
Went thru it back in my early working days (ehem, 5 yrs ago).
Tapi gila hectic. Its like sekaligus have to do approval letter, sekaligus minta boss sign, sekaligus fax, sekaligus customer datang for signing.
Days like this almost everytime pun have to tahan pee.
Nanti kasi tinggal cust sekejap, orang cakap nda buat kerja pulak kan?
Masih ok lagi.

So....
I re-purchase the same book which I bought a year or two ago.
EEEE should have check properly bah sebelum excited betul pigi bayar.
WTF. Sudahlah aku bayar normal price (10% card is with a friend).
Alaaaaaaa...2x sudah I buy books that I already have.
Tadi I call and tu strict bitch cakap kalau "rosak" exchangeable 7days + receipt.
Mine bukan rosak but I have it already. A bit kecewa la
(Translation: I want my RM35 backkkkkkkkkkkk...mummy....hahahahahhahaha)
Haiiii what to do. I'll just paksa my cousin buy it from me.

Thats how it is if you stop your hobby.
U.lost.track.
U.waste.your.RM35.

Punya ugly tu bitch punya customer service.
Patutlah dia kerja sana. Tengok aku, nice and cute=kerja di fantastic place
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH its my disappointment talking.
But honestly kan..I think you always have to give your customer choices you know, so that she can take in air and settle the trouble. Ini asyik2 mau marah (puiiii) , even Anwar pun nda marah2 macam ni hahahahahha. Ok ok mari aku cerita something; there was this mate of mine la kan, she sort of show attitude masa customer tanya so many things, like she malas layan bah so ini customer telah pergi ke local newspaper and complain. This local news published my mate punya real surname. Hah. Ambik ko sana, and she's the only one with that surname, wah tidak ka malang dan berbau tu like that. I think Boss apologized in his reply to that.

Sorry to say this; but kadang2 we do get Soalan Bonus, and sudah la ko sibuk kan, orang lagi mau mencari Jawapan Bonus. BUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT, nda bulih show attitude, nanti masuk news kekekeke.

Angry people;
I don't understand your anger.
Towards yourself ka tu?

Late 30s officer : McD= fattening.
(Unless its fish or chicken burger or nuggets)
Rena FR, 24 : McD=yum yum
(ALL esp. The Cheese)

Friday cuti kan? Good for me.

I havent listen to Lady Gaga.
She is on fire okkkkkkkkk.

XX Ren needs to see bags againnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn XX

Hari Ini Dalam Sejarah + Ayam Tua

2009-04-03T23:52:00.002+08:00

I took half day leave @ emergency leave today because balik2 pigi toilet.
Thank god I made it home, kalau terbaring dalam bas nda tau la macam mana.
I don't know what is slacking in my system, selalunya weekdays @ workdays jarang sakit2 macam ni, this is usually hal2 weekends tapi benda dah nak jadi right...

I was suppose to officially take over my new task today (macam jd PM pulak) but nda bulih la boss, betul2 I need to repeat toilet every hour. Anyway, aku nda tau la macam mana new task ni arghhhh mati lah stressful (don't tell anyone) but the guy I'm taking over from used to balik2 cuti and macam "tidak seronok" bekerja because selalu kena RUSH everything, orang mau kereta la, orang mau register la, orang mau cepat la, nda mau cooperate la...What will happen to me??? Hahahaha nda tau. But our styles will be lain kan...so kalau I feel dying also I'll just blog later keke.

Just for humanity record, my 1st customer (k) today sort of throw his file on the the table. CEHHHH gangster la konon...takutttttt...punyalah l-a-m-e. But its always like that, orang2 kaya ni ada 2 jenis saja..satu the buruk type, sikit2 marah, sikit2 tunjuk muka @_@, cakap pun macam dia most clever padahal @_@ AND the good type, oh ini I think I've only met kurang dari 10 dalam banyak2 customer, Duit memang sangat banyak, tapi very very humble, tiada masalah langsung, they actually assist you to make you work easier like OMFG kan, so berbeza ni....

Almost forgot about my tittle, its from my conversation with Bestie.
Entah lah. Sometimes rasa macam so far away lagi but sometimes rasa macam ALMOST there, confusing and peninggggggggg. Since my portal serta merta ditutup, saya akan pergi berusaha (nanti bila rajin) cari portal lain. Tapi bestie has so many portals, jadi aku lek ja la hahahaha! And yes, the badminton/jogging macam ON saja (portal, portal). Wow, this means I have reason to get my purple purple pink NIKE jacks. WOW WOW WOW
(monday note: Nike Palm Sq, tengok ada lagi ka tidak. WOW)

Enjoy your weekend.

XX Ren is hoping for a clear morning XX

All the while...

2009-03-31T22:29:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I'm a little disappointed with the office environment.
Up til now I STILL DON'T KNOW macam mana orang boleh jadi begitu teruk, buruk and selfish.The bad and ugleh is alaways going to come from diri sendiri. Tapi senang ja diaorang ni, I'll say this..."bah ya lah...tanya boss la nanti" hahahaahhahahah baru ko tak tau sana. Baru ko mau tukar, berlakon rajin. Ha...baru ko tak tau. My cousin used to say this so much to her older bro kalau dia tidak puas hati, "tanya ayah" and suddenly everything IS resolved. Tiada masalah, tiada hal, in fact tiada issue langsung hahahahaha BUT BUT BUT I also know that kadang2 people sort of get bosan ni if you balik2 play The Authority Card. (Memanglah bosan, sebab sudah kalah. Dang) Maybe because I'm very sinis+tidak peduli+tidak makan saman+not dramatic+can be quite hardworking also, jadi konon2 aku ni bulletproof la sikit. Aku paling benci la kan kalau terpaksa pura-pura acting if the boss lalu. Like extremely berlakon buat kerja. Astagah, kalau penat tu penat saja la bah, rest sekejap then sambung balik. Minta kena cakar bah all these MFs.

1) You know after I kena swap kerja tu kan (I'm on training now), this one senior girl stopped talking to me for 1 week. Astagahhhh...punyalah junior high. I feel so bidak ni like mati la bah juga. Awal2 tu feel bad juga you know...like should I offer to belanja yoyo or something? Last2 I decided not to, buat dek je la..Suda senior pun nda resolved2 lagi issues dia, Beh. Kamu faham ka apa aku type ni?

2) Ehem.
I did something bodoh today.
I announce to the whole dept. that I'm taken. Yes. Yours Truly.
Not my fault, siapa suruh tu bangang keep on mau kenalkan customer to me.
Yes. I DREAD THAT SO BLOODY MUCH. Let me do it sendiri okay. I believe I'm capable so nda payah mau siok2 tolong kenalkan. It'll ruin YOUR reputation. Mine is already ruined right that minute, jadi apa boleh buat saja lah hahahahahaha So ladiessssss, currently I'm taken @ ada bf. I don't know when I'll be free, give and take 1 month la hahahahahaha. Get back 2u later!

Wait a minute,
I always say that to avoid problems.
"Ya, sudah kahwin. BYE"

Time is spent looking at my new hair. Check ok ka tidak, cun ka tidak.
Now that hair is ringan, saya sangatlah rajin cuci rambut. Not that dulu I don't wash but rasa macam so heavy and lenguh mencuci.

Alhamdulillah,
I don't wake up late anymore. HEHEHE.
I must have learned dari pengalaman dulu ituuu...

I always get my DVDs on Friday. Sunday is defino DVD day.
Aku paling suka lah SETH ROGEN punya lawak. But Funny People baru launch in the US, lambat lagi tu kan masuk sini...

From now on mesti positive sikit!
Goodbye hari hari yang sedih.

HELLO Sunshine.

XX Ren is thankful XX

End of March 09.

2009-03-31T20:05:00.008+08:00

I thought kita May sudah ni, rupa-rupanya still March and baru mau masuk Apr.
Ya. I live in the future. Tadi pun I thought pukul 5 sudah, oh rupa-rupanya 4.
Damn.

Anyways,
Biggest shoutout to my bebeh
IDAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!
Happy Birthday to you!
I wish you all the best ya. Island this June? Or KL or Penang?
Who knows, who knows.

(Sibuk bro lalu lalu depan aku)

Blog again.
Midnite/tomorrow

XX Ren is in control XX

This is okay.

2009-03-23T23:34:00.004+08:00

Know what?
I should take back my words before.
I think I do love Patricks hahahaha
I mean 1st day macam nda berapa nampak but the days after macam not bad at all.
Might go there again for haircut, wash and treatment.
Tapi colour nda boleh la pigi sana, my regular place can do the same best.

Today had sushi in 1st floor for lunch.
Suprisingly delicious and agak full juga because in the menu macam so kecil everything but actually banyak side dishes lain. All for RM18. Hehehehe good to have mates yang rajin cari promotion. Didnt take any pictures but I love the kegelapan in that place, seems very peaceful and no chaos at all. Next promotion anyoneeeee?

Sort of "tired" reading all the love stories.
Macam no mood to find any good books already.
I hope I find something tho, sayang bah RM15 punya voucher!!!
Maybe because Bestie reads so many religious books jadi aku pun tertarik and its easier than love stories tau, less pening kepala, less drama. I am looking for more.

Try not to think so much about RM.
It feels better after.

How do you trust a man?
Ah forget that. How do you trust someone? Period.

Work wise, boss called for a meeting. I'm taking over someone's job. He is taking over someone's job also since that someone is going for mummy leave. Recruitment for the time being is frozen, eco crisis, eco crisis. I forsee kesibukan yang terlampau for me starting mid of Apr, I hope I won't die or anything because I've been through ALL these MF shit. Damn tomorrow have to start early lah to finish all the MF. Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
BTW, someone else is taking over my part also. WTH rite? Boss pakai cara kontraktor ni...banyak subs kekekekeke!!!

Waking up at 6.45 am tomorrow.
Bagi chance rambut mahhhh hehehe only can wash it on Wed, so I'll get back 2 ya!

Before this wanted to buy:
Nike jacket> F!!!! punya cantik. Its purple and limited edition. Tapi saya x main badminton so cancel saja la, its RM289.
Guess purse> Droolssssssssssssss...mine is still in good condition tapi again, droooool.RM180.
Roxy HB> Its Roxy, nuff said, RM189.
Vincci HB> Punya cantik and tidy the design. RM107.

JHEAIS should consider me (and bestie) as penerima zakat hahahahahaha!!!
People actually go as far as tipu gaji to get a car you know.
For me its ok bah if you can't afford certain things, apa ni main tipu-tipu...
(I mean only Paris H. can always have the Heli ride kan?)

Minum juice and off to la-la land.
Nite girlsssssssssssssss.

XX Ren cancelled her Maggi supper XX

The Fuss is o-ver.

2009-03-21T19:02:00.003+08:00

After Haircut

After Rebonding

Yes. I am back peeps.
Sort of promise myself not to blog until The Visit.
Can't believe I actually did it.

I went to Patrick, Wisma for rebonding.
So now I can look back and say, oh patrickkk....pernah sudah aku try!

My take:
Aku rasa macam salon biasa saja bah tu but most of my friends yang pi sana said that its a "pro" salon meaning the staff there ada kena train punya. I did hear my stylist tanya this one shampoo girl when is she leaving for her course. Go figure. Shampoo girl pun pigi training. For me ok lah because masih baru kan. I mean confirm lepas 2,3 days bengkok sana sini
And honestly my hair can never jadi super lurus. Mesti curl balik sana sini.
At least now the kusut a little kurang and if kena tiup angin it still looks ok.
Arrive there @10.30...so letak ubat sekejap, and then ubat somemore and then wash, straighten pakai iron, ubat again, wash, dry, treatment, wash and done. 3pm baru finish.

Rebonding + treatment = 250 + 95 . And you don't want to know the last amount after tambah lagi beberapa hair care I bought. All I can say is, maybe next time I'll try other salon pulak kekeke oh just so you can picture, I actually had my haircut at my regular place in Gaya Street yesterday thats why the rebonding 250 ja, IF I bring my original long hair there, MATILAH aku bankrap this March hahahaha I remember so panas and berat my long hair, ya, itulah kerana malas pergi trim. Regarding the hair care thang I bought tu I guess bagus juga la beli benda yang agak up price dia because you will use it kan, mesti teringat2 how the money jalan just like that hahahaha!

I have over come The Patrick Fuss yang menghantui aku since I started work.
Btw, Patrick is the white hair guy seen around the salon in Wisma, thats what my friend told me la...macam mostly he attend customer lelaki. But masa the last part my hair kena letak ubat, he did came over and touch my hair and instruct the sylist to kasi betul.
Fuh. Somehow it took my breath away juga la because this is the pemilik pro salon okayyyy. Rasa hebat juga sikit keke

All in all I'm glad I went for it.
Blog more tomorrow. Its afterall, Sundayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!

XX Ren misses blogging XX